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I'm Sorry I Lied

2011-12-06T12:02:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

I know, I lied.

And I'm truly sorry.

I didn't write much since the last time I blogged.

I know I did say that I would.

But it seems like I couldn't do it.

I lied to myself.

It's a terrible lie.

I apologize.

I promise to write again...

... when all this mess comes to an end.

Soon.

*But hey..! I forgot to announce this: My essay has been published on Jalan Telawi. Please take a look!

HERE! --> My Review on Teater Juta-juta

**So I did write something. So it wasn't a big fat lie after all. So, I shouldn't feel so bad. Hehh... ^_^

Enlightenment

2011-10-09T10:53:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

This is what they've been talking about, since a long time ago. This is what most people need, but it is something they don't see nor comprehend.

Enlightenment isn't something to be taken lightly. It's a huge step. It contributes to a paradigm shift. It changes a country. It changes people. It changes the world.

But unfortunately, I decided not to take part just yet (back then). I was afraid. I was confused. I was indifferent. I chose not to do nothing about it.

But today, I've seen it. I've heard enough.

I found it.

The answer.

And so, I change my mind.

I will not stop writing.

I want to see things changing.

I want to be a part of the process.

I'm ready.

I thought it was too late, I've wasted so many years in ignorance.

But not anymore.

To start is something,

to speak is believing,

to act is changing.

Let's change the world.

Let's speak out but not so loud.

Let's write!

Therefore, I am no longer on hiatus. I'll start to write again, insya Allah.

On Hiatus

2011-09-20T08:46:00.000-07:00

I'm back in school now. Not gonna be around here much.

Not gonna write much.

Not gonna do blog-reading much.

I bet my blogger friends are going to miss my crap.

Oh, no. They won't. Hee...

Til then, bloggaaahhh...!

H.U.K.U.M.

2011-09-06T23:11:00.000-07:00

Episod cerita pendek Gerabak ditunda lagi. Ada masa, akan di-sambung tulis.

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Kalau bercakap pasal hukum hakam, ramai yang tak berani masuk campur atau berdebat. Ramai yang takut. Kenapa? Kalau salah cakap, akan nampak yang kita ni kurang cerdik. Kurang ilmu. Tak habis belajar. Sama lah tu --> tak habis belajar = kurang ajar. Sebab tu orang yang tak tahu hukum akan cenderung menjadi kurang ajar. Tak percaya?

#1. Siapa tahu, apa hukumnya berhutang dengan orang lain tapi tak berusaha melunaskannya? Kalau si pemiutang tak redha si penghutang menangguhkan bayaran, berdosa besar hukumnya. Dosa si penghutang tak diampun selagi hutangnya belum lunas / selagi dia menangguh-nangguhkan membayar hutang.

Sebab tu kita disarankan mencatatkan perjanjian kalau ada berhutang. Macam kontrak, kenyataan bertulis. Ada sepotong ayat dari surah al-Baqarah menegaskan tentang perjanjian bertulis kalau berhutang:

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, apabila kamu bermuamalah tidak secara tunai untuk waktu yang ditentukan, hendaklah kamu menulisnya."
(Surah al-Baqarah ayat 282)

#2. Siapa tahu, apa hukumnya bersikap kurang ajar dengan orang tua? Lebih-lebih lagi ibu mertua. Berdosa besar hukumnya. Sama saja macam menderhaka dengan ibu bapa kandung sendiri.

Ini petikan daripada artikel tulisan Ustaz Haji Hishamudin Mansor:

"Apabila sudah berkahwin maka Islam menyuruh kita melayan ibu bapa mertua sama seperti melayan ayah dan ibu kandung sendiri. Kedudukan mereka adalah setaraf kerana mereka telah melahirkan anak yang kemudiannya menjadi isteri atau suami yang dinikahi. Dalam hukum fekah, adalah tidak batal wuduk dengan ibu bapa mertua begitu juga haram dinikahi mereka selama-lamanya.
Justeru apabila seseorang itu marah kepada ibu bapa mertuanya samalah seperti dia marah atau benci kepada ibu bapa kandungnya sendiri. Hukumnya adalah haram dan berdosa besar."

#3. Siapa tahu, apa hukumnya berbohong? Kalau kita di tempat kerja, lalu berbohong tengah sibuk meeting padahal tengah seronok main game, macam mana kita nak klasifikasikan perbuatan tersebut. Haa...itu pun sebenarnya dah salah hukumnya kat situ - main game waktu kerja. Tapi tak apa, itu nanti kita cerita lain.

Dari Asma’ binti Yazid dia berkata: Rasulullah SAW bersabda: “Bohong itu tidak halal kecuali dalam tiga hal (yaitu) suami pada isterinya agar mendapat redha isterinya, bohong dalam perang dan bohong untuk mendamaikan di antara manusia.”

Merujuk kepada kes bohong yang dinyatakan tadi, rasanya tak termasuk dalam mana-mana satu pengecualian dalam hadis ni, kan? Jadi.....

Kesimpulannya, jangan terlalu pandai bermain dengan hukum hakam. Diri kita masing-masing tak sempurna. Bertolak ansur dan berusaha untuk berbaik-baik, itu yang sepatutnya. Kalau sampai dah tak tahu hormat orang tua, bercakap tak berlapik macam dengan kawan-kawan, apa cerita? Betul tak?

Sekian.

Selamat Hari Raya 'Idulfitr. Maaf zahir batin.

DiGi MyPhone Shorties

2011-08-15T21:33:00.000-07:00

Episod cerita pendek Gerabak terhenti seketika untuk memberi laluan kepada iklan ini. Hee... =)

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

For those who haven't heard of the competition before, here, lemme tell you.

DiGi in collaboration with UiTM, LimKokWing and KLMU is organizing a 30 seconds PSA competition with one theme - Terima Kasih Malaysia. It is opened for university students and also the people all over Malaysia. For more details, click HERE.

The most interesting part is, the videos must be shot using iPhone 4. So, everyone with that not-so-expensive phone (uh-oh) are welcomed to participate! And for the prize, we're not talking about RM100 or RM200 here, it's RM10,000 all right...!

Many of my friends are participating in this competition. So, please sign in to your YouTube account (or sign up NOW if you don't have one), watch these short PSA videos and click LIKE. Tell your mum, your dad, your friends, your neighbors and everyone you know to do the same thing. Hehe...

Here are some of the videos. I must say, they are really good. Each and every one of them has potential to win. *the titles are all links to the videos. So, just click on 'em to open it in a new tab. :)

#1 Terima Kasih Malaysia - Belacan

Directed by: Ande Umar Osman

#2 Terima Kasih Malaysia - Surat Cinta

Directed by: Rahhiemi Alias

#3 Terima Kasih Malaysia - Bas Kemajuan

Directed by: Al-Hafiz Burhanuddin

#4 Terima Kasih Malaysia - Warna

Directed by: Noorazlina Mohd Noor

#5 Terima Kasih Malaysia - Lesung Batu

Directed by: Muhammad Farhan Ramli

So, what are you waiting for? Please click the LIKE button a zillion times, okay...! Thank you!

And to all my participating friends, best of luck! =D

Gerabak: Episod 1

2011-08-12T18:15:00.000-07:00

"Dik... tiket dik..."

Aku terkulat-kulat memandang konduktor KTM berseragam biru berdiri terpacak di depanku sambil menghulurkan tangan. Oh, ya...semestinya dia nak check tiket. Aku tak dengar pun apa katanya, kedua-dua telinga dicekup headphone dengan muzik menjerit full volume bergema dalam kepala. Tapi aku faham gerak bibir encik konduktor tersebut.

Dia mengetip tiket dan memulangkannya semula. Di sebelahku, seorang lelaki warga asing berkulit gelap sedang terlena dengan mulut ternganga. Hai...nasib2. Kenapa-lah dapat seat tak strategik macam ni. Aku nak aja pindah ke seat lain, tapi semuanya penuh. Sigh...

Sepanjang perjalanan aku pandang luar tingkap saja. Tak ada apa pun yang dapat dilihat, pekat malam melatari bunyi bising keretapi. Sekejap bunyi gedegek2, sekejap bunyi screeetchh yang panjang bila berhenti di stesen-stesen daerah. Ngilu. Aku ketap gigi. Masa keretapi berhenti di Ipoh, ada tiga sekawan jejaka naik dan duduk di kerusi depan aku. Halwa mata. ^_^

Aku melirik jam di tangan, baru pukul 3.00 pagi. Lambatnya lagi nak bersahur. Sesekali aku mengerling pada plastik bekal yang Mama titipkan dari rumah tadi. Nasi lemak lauk sambal ayam. Sedapnya, tak sabar nak makan. Walau dah sejuk terkena air-cond keretapi. Tapi aku terfikir, selesakah nak makan di seat ni? Dengan dengkur berbau dari lelaki sebelah aku ni, ditambah pula dengan ketiadaan meja lipat yang sepatutnya tersedia di setiap kerusi, buat aku runsing. Terima kasih-lah, tangan-tangan jahanam. Sememangnya vandalisme beri sumbangan besar dalam menyusahkan orang ramai - termasuk aku.

Akhirnya jam menunjukkan angka empat. Aku menoleh ke kiri. Eh, dah hilang dah mamat pendatang tadi. Syukur. Tapi aku masih berkeputusan nak bersahur di kafe. Boleh jugak order air panas, sejuk ya amat rasa sampai ke tulang. Aku pun bangun dan berjalan ke koc paling hujung (aku rasa) lalu sampai ke kafeteria. Ada satu family sedang bersahur dan juga mamat-mamat yang naik di Ipoh tadi. Ahh... chill. Meja di belakang mereka tak ada orang duduk. Aku berjalan ke arah meja itu dan mereka memandang aku sekilas. Tapi tak senyum.

Aku ke kaunter, order milo panas. Si waiter yang comel pendek tu (muka dah sah-sah baru habis sekolah) berani-berani nak tegur aku.

"Sahur ye, awak?" sambil tersengih-sengih.

Tak-lah. Aku nak berbuka ni, tak nampak?? Oh, aku bercakap dalam hati aja rupanya.

"Ha'ah."

Dia senyum lagi sebelum berlalu menghantar order. 'Ehh, si pendek ni. Ada hati nak tegur aku pulak.' Kata aku lagi dalam hati. Aku tak kejam. Aku cuma jujur - dari segi mengulas struktur fizikal beliau itu.

Aku bayar harga milo dan duduk di meja tadi. Eh, laa... mamat-mamat ni dah habis makan rupanya. Hmm...aku makan sorang-sorang sambil pandang luar tingkap (lagi).

Selesai bersahur, aku terus duduk termenung seorang di kafe. Malas nak lalu di celah-celah orang lagi. Lebih kurang pukul 6.00 pagi aku sampai di KL Sentral, terus ke toilet. Tak lupa call Mama beritahu dah selamat sampai. Announcement train komuter kedengaran. Bagus, dah boleh gerak awal. Aku pun menyeluk poket beg dan mencapai kad Touch and Go lalu ke pintu laluan KTM ke Batu Caves. Oh ya, aku lupa beritahu aku ke Hospital Selayang atas urusan kesihatan.

Tak lama menunggu, train pun sampai. Aku salah langkah rupanya. Aku bajet kalau gerak awal, train lapang sikit. Sepatutnya aku tunggu train pukul 7.00 lebih, mesti dah kurang orang. Tak apa-lah, aku redah masuk ke dalam koc wanita. Rasa kewanitaan sangat berdiri bersama-sama kaum wanita semuanya. Koc pun warna pink. LOL.

Sampai di Taman Wahyu, aku turun dan naik teksi ke hospital. Teksi berhenti depan entrance klinik pakar. Lepas bayar tambang, aku terus masuk dan naik ke tingkat atas mencari kaunter pendaftaran. Ambil nombor, duduk menunggu giliran sambil tengok TV - Malaysia Hari Ini. Menarik! Kebetulan Ally Iskandar sedang menemu ramah wajah yang aku kenal - Encik Fifi, Manggis dan Abby. Ini sempena kejayaan team tarian fakulti aku mewakili universiti dan Malaysia ke Los Angeles dalam WCOPA. Aku bangga sekejap, kembang kempis lubang hidung aku.

Nama aku dipanggil. Aku masuk berjumpa doktor. Jeling-jeling name tag, nama doktor yang baru first time aku berjanji temu ini - Dr. Febra Siam. Muda lagi. Dia meneliti rekod kesihatan aku dalam skrin komputer, lalu mengulas menanya menerangkan mengurut dagu menelefon dan akhirnya dia memaklumkan aku tindakan selanjutnya yang perlu diambil berkaitan penyakit aku ni. Aku bosan dengar penerangan dia yang panjang lebar, aku tak perlu lagi, aku dah tahu. Lagipun doktor ni lain macam aja, cara dia pandang aku, sambil senyum-senyum lagi. Aku kecewa sikit sebenarnya sebab hari ni temu janji di HPB, bukan dengan Dr. Syed yang kacak dan aku admire itu. Eh? Haha...
"Saya sendiri musykil dengan condition awak ni. ERCP dah buat tiga kali, OGDS dah buat sekali, tapi result CT scan masih tak menunjukkan apa-apa perubahan. Kita belum boleh mulakan treatment, perlu investigate lagi apa punca yang sebenar. Hmm...macam ni lah. Kita buat ujian darah hari ni. Lepas tu awak pergi klinik Hepatologi kat tingkat bawah. Dr. Syed kata dia nak jumpa awak."

Wah...! Nasib baik aku berjaya kawal diri daripada melompat. Aku pun segera ambil kad temujanji dan turun ke tingkat bawah. Dalam hati berdebar-debar nak berjumpa Dr. Syed. Ehh... perlu ke berdebar? Haha...

BERSAMBUNG. . . . .

Coming Soon!

2011-08-05T02:23:00.000-07:00

Of my two days train trip.

Later!

Diskusi: Pasca Bersih 2.0

2011-08-01T17:53:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

It has been a while since the day of the Bersih 2.0 rally on July 9. We've heard all the voices, we've seen all the pictures and videos but still, there are people who could not comprehend what was going on.

Some of my friends went to join the rally and have seen the 'happenings' on the day. All the media sources are everywhere on the net - the webs, blogs, Facebook, Twitter - so it is impossible for anyone not to know or care about the July 9 event. Nevertheless, I still hear people saying "Oh, I don't talk politics. Not my cup of tea." Man, if you consider yourself a citizen, you are already involved in politics, believe it or not.

I'm not going to say what's right and what's wrong, we've read and known well enough for ourselves. There are just some interesting discussions I had with my friends over Facebook and I think they are all worth to be shared. The early comments were probably from those who doesn't read much. Some were trying to object, some agreed, some were giving good opinions, some were looking at it negatively, some were pointing out misleading arguments, some were showing their racism, some were relating it to other issues, some chose to stay neutral, some were just.... talking. People share different opinions, it IS a good thing. But when some of them started to heat it up, it became an unhealthy discussion. Fortunately, a balanced and complete explanation from a few friends saved the day.

It all started with a link of an article from here and the long conversation came afterwards.

(Warning: This is a SUPER LONG post. And please excuse the casual language used. Re-written for proper reading.)

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A: Walaupun aku ni bukan bijak pandai atau kuat politik.. tapi pandangan yang aku baca ni memang ada benarnya.. jadi, harap sesiapa yang berminat boleh baca sama.

B: Apa yang benar?

A: Komen-komen penulis tentang 8 tuntutan tu. Awal-lagi lagi aku dah perasan yang kebanyakan tuntutan tu memang dah dalam proses pelaksanaan. Pasal rasuah tu aku setuju. Cuma aku tak suka sangat la berkumpul ramai-ramai buat demonstrasi ni. Damai ke rusuhan ke sama aja.

C: Mereka yang berkumpul ramai-ramai tu pakai fatwa si tua di Kelantan, yang kata berkumpul semasa Bersih 2.0 ni samalah seperti berkumpul semasa mengerjakan haji.

D: Apa yang benarnya? Fikir la masak-masak. Biar kerajaan main kotor. Untuk siapa? Untuk orang Melayu kita jugak..katakan kerajaan kalah, siapa yang akan ganti? Bukan PAS dan PKR tapi DAP. Contohnya macam orang Melayu di Pulau Pinang dan Singapura, lihat apa dah jadi. Mereka ditindas. Lagi pulak kalau Ambiga tu dapat sokongan, dia akan tuntut balik apa yang dia tak dapat dalam IFC dulu. Kalau tak nak dengar lagi laungan azan, keturunan kau murtad, sokong lah.

A: Apa yang kau merepek ni, bro D? Apa yang benarnya? Kau baca tak (artikel tu), jangan nak hentam aja. Sejak bila pulak aku sokong Bersih. Tolong baca betul-betul artikel tu. Rujuk balik komen aku sebelum ni. Aku kata kerajaan dah memang laksanakan 8 tuntutan tu sebelum Bersih 2.0 dilancarkan lagi. Pasal tuntutan tu aku memang setuju. Sebelum kata orang murtad, sebelum komen, tolong baca betul-betul. Please be matured and mind your word.

D: Sorry, sampai mati pun aku takkan baca apa-apa tentang Bersih 2.0.

A: Aku tak marah. Cuma kat artikel ni apa yang dia tulis dapat buat kita rakyat Malaysia hargai keamanan dan kemewahan hidup yang Allah SWT berikan. Itu yang aku setuju. Aku memang tak setuju langsung dengan Bersih. Sekadar berkongsi.

E: Kerajaan sekarang jaga Melayu? No need to argue more kalau ada lagi orang yang berfikiran macam ni. Orang tak ada ilmu tapi tak mahu cari ilmu. Kebenaran ada kat merata-rata. Antara nak terima atau terus menolak demi kepentingan diri.

A: Paling baik dengar semua pihak punya penjelasan, baru buat keputusan sendiri. Lebih baik kita keluarkan pandangan sendiri dari hanya ikut orang.

F: "...marching on the streets aimlessly without any clear objective or reason...?" Define 'aimlessly' please. People who joined the rally are VERY AWARE of the 8 points that Bersih put forth. Tak ada yang sertai Bersih tanpa tahu tujuan sebenar. Semua cukup sedar dan aware. This is just another biased pro-govt article that denies the true objective of Bersih 2.0 rally. Aku dah banyak baca artikel macam ni, berjela-jela panjang tapi argue benda yang sama jugak.

A: Memang artikel ni agak bias, dan betul ramai yang sertai tu tahu tujuan rally diadakan tapi banyak jugak yang hanya pergi ikut kawan tanpa mengetahui tujuan rally tu sebenarnya. Ini berdasarkan beberapa orang pergi ke rally tu dan aku tanya mereka sendiri. Aku pun bukan arif sangat pasal benda ni, cuma entah kenapa bila baca artikel ni, tergerak hati nak menyatakan pendapat. Kalau salah, harap jangan marah-marah lah ya.

E: Dan yang lawaknya, lagi banyak yang tahu kenapa rally tu diadakan tapi pandai-pandai nak buat kesimpulan sendiri. Siap cakap rally tu bertujuan untuk hilangkan kuasa Melayu. Seriously...speechless, bro.

A: Manusia, bro. Macam-macam kerenah ada. Yang penting memartabatkan bangsa dan keamanan negara. Aku nak kerja government, nak komen lebih-lebih kat sini nanti kena ban pulak.

E: Kerja dengan kerajaan, bro. Bukan kerja dengan parti. Yang penting, Malaysia maju tak kira bangsa dan agama. Semua bersatu memartabatkan Malaysia setaraf negara-negara besar dunia. United as Malaysian, bro.

F: Saudara A, aku tak marah pun la. Hangin sikit aja sebab aku memang teringin nak tahu kebenaran dari pihak satu lagi. Macam-macam artikel aku dah baca dengan harapan nak la terjumpa pendapat yang bernas sikit dari pro-kerajaan ni. Penat aku baca panjang-panjang, sama aja macam yang pernah aku baca.

A: Saudara E, memang lah bro. Nanti boss aku baca apa aku tulis kat sini, mampus aku kena target. I agree with your opinion, bro. Aku tak kisah mana-mana parti memerintah selagi keadilan dan kesejahteraan setiap rakyat tak kira bangsa dan agama dijaga. Saudara F, tak adalah. Aku memang mengalu-alukan pendapat yang bernas. Aku buat post ni bukan untuk buat kontroversi, cuma nak sembang-sembang dan menambahkan pengetahuan. Malu bertanya sesat jalan, kan.

G: Bro, atas sebab kebenaran pun kau takut boss kau target kau. Sejak bila kau jadi orang dewasa macam ni? Kau takut bercakap perkara yang benar ke? Setahu aku, belajar mengaji sekolah agama pun cakap berani kerana benar. Satu soalan, kenapa kena buat rally? Sebab rakyat tak tahan lagi, beb. Kerajaan perlahan-lahan nak ubah negara ke arah itu. Arah apa? Berapa puluh tahun negara masih di takuk yang sama? Apa beza ekonomi kaum dari zaman Tunku Abdul Rahman dengan zaman sekarang? Kau nak kata Melayu di Pulau Pinang kena tindas sebab orang Cina DAP memerintah? Aku nak tanya dulu, BN memerintah, siapa ketua menteri? Bukan ke Cina? Alahai...cakap biar fakta, beb. Kau kena banyak cari info lain selain TV1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 8. Utusan meloyan dan berita kehairanan tu semua fixed propaganda. Kau kena tengok dua-dua belah cerita lepas tu kau sendiri decide. Manusia normal memang akan sokong Bersih. Itu aja aku mampu cakap. Bagi aku, artikel ni agak bias. There is nothing wrong for people to march. Sikit pun tak langgar undang-undang. Kenapa aku cakap macam tu? Contoh, kerajaan bawa kes peserta demonstrasi yang dimasukkan ke lokap. Ada yang masuk penjara tanpa bicara, itu kejam panggil nama ISA! Kita ada law kenapa tak dibicarakan di mahkamah? Adilkah semua tu? Kau persoalkan demonstrasi ni damai atau tak. Kau bagi satu bukti yang demo ni merosakkan harta benda awam? Polis yang rosakkan sebenarnya, sembur sana sini. Ada kereta pecah cermin atau terbakar? Lampu jalan pecah? Tong sampah terbakar? Yang kena belasah tu antaranya orang-orang tua, mereka tu bawa senjata kah? Patutkah dipanggil perusuh? Kau sendiri dapat nilai mana benar mana salah.

A: Terima kasih atas komen. Itu sebabnya aku buat post ni, untuk tahu kedua-dua side cerita. Kalau baca artikel memang banyak pro kerajaan. Bila aku buka post ni baru aku boleh tahu pendapat dari pihak satu lagi. Macam yang aku cakap tadi, walau apa pun yang terjadi lepas ni, siapa yang memerintah, yang penting keamanan dan keadilan dijaga. Satu lagi, saudara G. Memang agama Islam mengajar berani kerana benar. Tapi kita kena tengok juga apa yang nak di-komen. Sekiranya dalam kerajaan 100% semuanya zalim dan teruk, memang aku akan lantang bersuara. Tapi aku dapati bukan semuanya teruk. Itu mungkin apa yang aku nampak, mungkin ada lagi yang terselindung. Aku tak nak komen terlalu lantang takut aku akan mengguris perasaan kawan-kawan. Dewasa atau tidak bukannya berpandukan atas keberanian. Itu terletak pada individu itu sendiri melalui pemikirannya.

G: Bro, aku ada jugak kat sana (Perhimpunan Bersih). Ilmu kau selama ni boleh nilaikan keadaan semasa. Macam aku cakap sebelum ni, atas sebab cari makan kau sanggup tinggal amal makruf, aku pun tak paham. Islam itu dari Allah, Tuhan bagi akal untuk kau sendiri menilai. Satu soalan, kalau kerajaan (melalui pihak polis) tak bertindak kejam pada demonstrator hari tu, agak-agak rakyat marah kat siapa?

A: Adakah sebab aku tak pergi ikut rally bermakna aku tinggalkan amal makruf? Aku rasa mesti kau ingat aku yang tulis artikel tu kan. Bukan aku yang tulis. Aku cuma baca. Aku bercakap mengikut bidang aku. Kita bekerja dalam kerajaan berusaha memberikan perkhidmatan terbaik untuk rakyat. Aku cuma tak nak orang salah faham, bila dimaksudkan kerajaan, bukannya termasuk kakitangan kerajaan. Aku cuma bagi pendapat tentang marching tu, aku rasa kan lagi elok hantar ikut saluran disediakan. Itu cuma pendapat aku. Mungkin pemikiran kita berbeza. Atau mungkin ada benda yang aku terlepas pandang.

F: Relaks, bro. Kita hormat A sebagai tuan rumah. Dia post benda ni dengan niat untuk dengar dari kedua-dua pihak, bukan dia jadi tukang jawab persoalan kat sini. Kita berbahas dengan sihat bebas emosi.

A: Tentang persoalan tindakan kejam (polis) tu, rakyat tetap marahkan kerajaan kerana aku tak rasa tuntutan tu akan dilaksanakan sekiranya rally tu dibuat dengan aman. Walau siapa yang memerintah, orang yang bekerja dalam kerajaan tetap sama. Yang berbeza cuma pemimpin saja.

F: Dalam isu apa pun wajib ada perbezaan pendapat. Tak meriah lah kalau semua orang sependapat atau sokong satu pihak saja. Kalau A sokong bersih, B tak sokong Bersih, tak bermakna A dengan B kena bermusuh. Bagi aku, kerajaan pemerintah dan rakyat ni macam dalam konteks filem juga, ada form dan content. Kerajaan memerintah adalah form, kita semua ni sebagai content. Kalau form buruk, content tak semestinya kena ikut jadi buruk jugak. Dan sekali form bertukar dengan form yang lain, content masih content yang sama dan mengikut form yang baru serta betul ni. Itu aku ibaratkan saja. Jangan mudah melabelkan sesuatu secara jemaah, sebab tak semuanya buruk mcm yang kita sangka. Aku faham, tindakan lemah lembut dah tak berkesan untuk ubah kecelaruan yang berlaku sekarang ni, sebab tu rakyat memilih bertindak radikal. Tapi Alhamdulillah, walau macam mana pun, Bersih terbukti tak menyebabkan kemusnahan macam yang media gembar gemburkan tu. Walaupun 'orang 'TV' kata lepas Bersih selesai, tak ada perubahan pun, mereka silap. dalam hati kita seluruh rakyat Malaysia dah terpatri peristiwa 9 julai yang menjadi titik tolak kebangkitan rakyat. Memang kita tak jadi macam Mesir yang berjuang habis-habisan, tapi at least kita dah berjaya buka mata dunia. Pemerintah sedikit sebanyak dah tergugat dan goyang lutut walaupun merka tak tunjukkan secara nyata. Inilah kuasa rakyat. Dan 'mereka-mereka' itu dah lihat. 'Mereka' takut. Untuk menjawab soalan saudara G, kalau polis (a.k.a kerajaan) tak bertindak kejam masa 9 julai lalu, rakyat tak ada nak marah sesiapa sebab suara yang dilaungkan dapat sampai kepada yang nak disampaikan. Tapi apa yang terjadi, suara-suara ni dihalang dari sampai ke tempatnya, dan cara dihalang tu dilihat kasar (boleh rujuk artikel-artikel tentang kata-kata dari Pak Samad Said yang menggambarkan layanan polis). Itu saja yang rakyat marahkan.

A: Mungkin lepas ni para pemimpin akan buka mata dan buat perubahan sekiranya mereka ingin tetap memerintah dan disenangi rakyat. Susah sebenarnya nak berbincang macam ni tanpa kontroversi. Sebab topik Bersih ni masih agak sensitif dan bukan semua faham cara nak memberikan pendapat dalam perbincangan - kena berhemah dan bertolak ansur. Emosi perlu diketepikan. Kadang-kadang Melayu ni mudah melatah bila dicucuk. Apa pun, aku hargai pendapat semua. Tak kisah apa pendapat anda, siapa anda sokong, yang penting lakukanlah tugas dan tanggungjawab anda dalam memajukan dan memastikan Malaysia kekal aman dan sejahtera.

G: Statement aku mengarah lebih persoalan, jawapan itu di-trigger among kita sendiri. Aku cetuskan persoalan yang akhirnya dijawab oleh kau sendiri. Aku bukan side partisme, tapi BErsih. Daripada provoke guna sentimen bangsa lepas agama, kata bukan-bukan pada Melayu di Penang, cara halus ni lebih bahaya bagi aku. Pernah tak terfikir, PRU ditentukan oleh rakyat untuk memilih kerajaan, bukan? Kenapa rakyat tak pilih Perdana Menteri sendiri, kata demokratik?

F: Revolusi tu sedang berlaku perlahan-lahan sekarang ni, saudara G. Negara kita tak radikal buat perubahan drastik macam Mesir, Libya. Rakyat memberontak usir pemimpin sampai negara huru hara. Memang betul, kuasa memilih di tangan rakyat. Sebab tu aku yakin insya Allah PRU 13 bakal bawa perubahan. Rakyat dah tengok kebenaran, dah bertindak dan mula bersuara lantang. Kita tunggu dan lihat saja nanti. Pemimpin adil pemimpin disembah, pemimpin zalim pemimpin disanggah. Aku optimis perubahan akan berlaku cuma prosesnya perlahan.

A: Kalau tak silap aku, kalau nak membolehkan rakyat pilih pemimpin dan bukannya pemimpin dilantik dari parti yang menang bertanding dalam PRU, kita kena ubah perlembagaan dulu lah, kan? Dan persoalan yang saudara G utarakan tu, tak pernah terfikir pulak sebelum ni. Macam yang diamalkan di banyak negara maju, parti yang menang pilihanraya tak menentukan siapa jadi Presiden negara tersebut. Presiden dipilih melalui calon-calon yang dikemukakan oleh semua parti bertanding. Bagus persoalan ni.

F: Memang best kalau rakyat dapat pilih sendiri pemimpin yang kita nak. Tapi masalahnya, Malaysia bukan negara republik. Kalau tak, dah lama boleh terus vote siapa jadi Perdana Menteri, siapa menteri-menteri. Soal pinda perlembangaan tu aku tak pasti pulak. Kena tanya pada yang pakar dalam undang-undang.

E: Rasanya pasal pemilihan PM tu tak jadi isu. Siapa yang menang pilihan raya, maka parti dia lah akan naik. Dan ahli-ahlinya lah yang akan memegang jawatan mengikut kesesuaian dan kepakaran masing-masing. Kita pun pilih wakil rakyat, cuma kita tak pilih siapa yang jadi menteri itu dan ini. Rasanya tak ada masalah kalau Ketua Menteri sendiri yang memilih ahli jemaahnya sebab dia perlukan orang yang dia betul-betul tahu boleh jaga bahagian-bahagian di bawahnya. isu sebenar di sini pasal suara rakyat tak didengar ni berkaitan dgn PILIHAN RAYA. Pilihan raya sekarang ni kita memang DIKETAHUI ADA kepincangannya. SPR memang kurang telus kerana terpaksa bekerjasama dgn BN. Ye lah, boss dia...kita semua faham kan. Ini SEMUA terjadi sebab satu parti MEMEGANG tampuk pemerintahan sebagai kerajaan TERLAMPAU lama. Maka kuasanya telah tersebar pada badan-badan yang sepatutnya berada DI LUAR bidang kuasa mereka. Contohnya bidang Judiciary dan SPR. Tapi sekarang ni kita boleh nampak yang pengaruh kuasa tu telah tersebar pada badan yg sepatutnya Bebas ini. Ini yg sepatutnya kita NAMPAK. Negara-negara maju lain, RAKYATnya sendiri akan menukarkan parti kerajaan selepas ia memerintah 10 tahun. Kenapa? Untuk MENGELAKKAN perkara-perkara yang terjadi pada negara kita ni berlaku. RASUAH/Penyelewengan/campur kuasa dan sebagainya. So, ini yang patut kita nampak. Jangan takut untuk bagi parti yang satu laig cuba memerintah. Kita perlukan KEDUA-DUA parti untuk menggerakkan negara. It will serve as CHECK AND BALANCE. Kedua-dua Komponen Parti mempunyai MELAYU CINA DAN INDIA...so, jangan risau isu kaum. Siapa akan MELIHAT dan MENASIHATI antara satu sama lain jika ada pihak yg melebih-lebih...betul? Kita ada artikel 153 152....kuasa raja dan kelebihan orang Melayu masih terjaga berdasarkan artikel in. So kita tak perlulah takut. Kalau langgar perlembagaan, kita semua akan marah. Seperti yang terjadi sekarang. BN boleh dikatakan MELANGGAR perlembagaan Artikel 10(b) iaitu hak untuk berhimpun. Kita dapat tengok SEMUA orang marah. Tapi kerajaan sekarang terlampau kuat, lagi kuat dari RAJA, lagi kuat dari Perlembagaan dan lagi kuat dari undang-undang. Ini MASALAH yang kita PATUT lihat sebagai rakyat yang berpelajaran dan yang betul-betul mementingkan arah tuju negara Malaysia tercinta. Kita mampu mengubahnya! Untuk menjawab pasal revolusi tu, memang betul cakap F. Kita sedang mengalami revolusi, tapi tidak drastik. USA mengambil masa 200 tahun SELEPAS merdeka untuk capai tahap dan kemajuan sekarang ni. Kita Malaysia baru je 50 tahun merdeka dan sudah nampak titik-titik revolusi dan perkembangan minda rakyat. Jadi kita sedang bergerak ke arah yang betul la. Tak lambat pun actually. Cuma negara-negara seperti Korea dan Thailand, Japan dll saja yang cepat sikit mengalami revolusi ni, which is very good. Ada banyak faktor, mungkin pemimpin di atas kurang korup, mungkin taraf pendidikan rakyat lebih tinggi, mungkin kurang faktor sosial seperti perpecahan kaum dalam negara, mungkin ekonomi kerajaan lebih tinggi sebab kurang penyelewengan dan banyak lagi faktor yang menyebabkan sesebuah negara tu cepat maju dan membangun. Maju di sini bukan dari segi pembangunan dan ekonomi saja, tapi merangkumi semua termasuk dari segi social, unity, rights dan lain-lain. Harap kita akan mencapai kemajuan macam mereka dalam masa 100 tahun lagi. Revolusi ambil masa. CEPAT ATAU LAMBAT bergantung pada kita. Adakah kita mahu Malaysia CEPAT evolve jadi negara maju atau kita dah cukup dengan keadaan sekarang.

A: Betul...! Perubahan kalau terlalu drastik pun tak semestinya akan memberi kesan yang baik kepada negara dan rakyat. Terima kasih, E, sebab beri penerangan yang bagi aku amat padat dengan maklumat. Macam ni lah boleh tambah ilmu dari berperang bodoh-bodoh aja. Betul tak?

E: Sama-sama, A. Aku pun banyak tak tahu dan salah, masih kawan-kawan perbetulkan. Cuba pergi dekat page politik, lagi lawak. Debate dalam satu issue, bagi jawapan macam budak-budak tadika bergaduh. Ejek-ejek nama, ejek gambar profile. Alahai, bukan budak-budak yang buat perangai macam tu, tapi orang dewasa. Itu lah mentaliti segelintir rakyat Malaysia. Secara jujurnya aku pun kurang bersetuju dgn perarakan dan demo ni, tapi jika kita buat dengan cara yang profesional, maka tindakan kita PASTI akan dibakul sampahkan. Mereka menghimpit kita tak kira Melayu Cina India. Semua rakyat dipermain-mainkan, diperkotak-katikkan, sehingga kita tak ada ruang lagi untuk bersuara. Suara kita dibakul sampahkan. Maka rakyat terpaksa keluar di jalanan untuk memastikan suara mereka dapat didengari oleh semua pihak.

G: Bila suara tak didengar, akhirnya dibawa turun ke jalan, demostrasi ni bukan baru dalam negara kita, masa British dulu pergerakan demonstrasi lah pencetus kemerdekaan negara. Siapa kita untuk menidakkan suara orang lain. Even dalam demo pun ada profesionalisme. Cukuplah dengan main sentimen kaum, beb. Kita nakkan yang terbaik untuk negara, mana ada orang nak gaduh suka-suka. Kita benci ruang suara makin sempit, perubahan makin gelap, even SPR sendiri mengaku wujudnya pengundi hantu dalam statement Naib Pengerusi dia, apa cerita. Yang berkuasa makin KEBAL dan tunjuk kebebalan. Maaf kalau kata-kata aku emosi sebelum ni, tapi aku terpaksa dengan cara macam ni, kerana kita kena pupuk sikap awareness sesama kita. Orang kata politik tu kotor, beb. This is our FUTURE, we should fight for it, right?Even Pak Samad sasterawan negara join Bersih. Tentang isu PM patut dipilih oleh rakyat sendiri, satu hal. Semasa kebangkitan kemerdekaan, yang lead mostly Tun Abd Razak bukan Tunku Abdul Rahman. Di sini aku tidak menidakkan pemimpin-pemimpin lain tetapi based on chronology tulisan semasa pemberian petisyen untuk merdeka, Razak sendiri meminta Tunku untuk lead hantar petisyen sebab Razak terdiri daripada orang biasa bukan keturunan orang-orang besar. Sedangkan rakyat sendiri memilih Razak. Ini pula diikuti dengan Queen sendiri dalam statement-nya mahu berjumpa dengan orang setaraf dengan nya. Ini punca kenapa razak jadi PM kedua (fakta ini diambil secara lisan daripada totok-totok dan juak-juak kononnya memperjuangkan kemerdekaan). Di sini sejarah tunjuk, pemimpin dipilih di kalangan rakyat sendiri menjatuhkan Abdul Rahman dengan Tun Razak mencipta UMNO, dengan rancangan DEB, FELDA, FELCRA-nya yang ditubuh untuk mengkayakan rakyat sendiri akhirnya sekarang org tu kena kerja dengan FELDA pulak. Berlakulah krisis di mana UMNO diharamkan sendiri oleh mahkamah. Dengan ilmu dan pengaruh Dr.M yang aku sendiri rasa dia excellent dalam politics game mencipta UMNO team B dan umno team A. Ini membawa kepada Abd Razak sendiri keluar umno akibat permainan Dr.M tadi, dan mewujudkan parti baru yang akhirnya terkubur. Tun Razak resign diganti dengan Tun Hussein. Tun HUssin adalah dalam permainan tangan Dr.M, dengan jarak 1 penggal PRU, Dr.M berjaya lead the nation. Dengan perubahan sistem kekuasaan raja, M membuat rombakan kekuasaan raja-raja dengan mengembalikan kuasa raja kembali seperti zaman dahulu semasa British iaitu raja berkuasa ke atas perihal adat dan agama sahaja. Hasil conclusion dulu memang tak perlu buat sebab dengan kuasa percaya dah cukup, tapi record shows krisis, rasuah berlaku dalam parti tapi tak diakui sendiri. Zaman sekarang perlu PM dipilih oleh rakyat sendiri seperti mana perubahan negara-negara maju. Based on track record, the changing of this nation PM's is done by penyambungan kuasa. By verbal only. Tiada election among parliament or rakyat itself, only by verbal the PM reign control? Memang termaktub dalam perlembagaan sebegini rupakah?

E: Kita tak boleh pilih PM sebab memang bukan system kita macam tu. Sepatutnya lepas pilihan raya, kita kena pilih pula siapa PM dan TPM. Sepatutnya lah. Tapi tak termaktub dalam perlembagaan kita boleh pilih PM. Party yang menang berhak memilih struktur kementeriannya mengikut kesesuaian. Contoh yang terbaik, KJ menang Ketua Pemuda tapi tak ada jawatan menteri. So, di sini memang tak ada undang-undang yang clear pasal ni tapi semua "faham2" ketua parti lah yang akan lead jadi PM dan dia lah yang akan susun menteri-menteri di bawahnya.

G: Adakah dalam perlembagaan negara PM boleh diwarisi secara verbal? Jikalau PM sebelum ini memilih TPM menggantikannya, adakah seluruh ketua menteri kena setuju, jikalau benar relevennya akta apa dalam perlembagaan kata macam tu?

E: Kena check balik dalam Federal Constitution.

G: Aku tak ada jumpa satu pun pasal info ni. Adakah perkara ini kurang pendedahan ? Rakyat tak perlu tahu ke?

E: Kau kena faham "cara" pemerintahan sekarang ni. Lagi banyak rakyat tak tahu, lagi senang mereka nak buat kerja.

G: Itu lah, sedangkan perkara asas pun ramai yang tak tahu, sedangkan ini sebuah asas negara, basic civil knowledge of the nation. Aku terfikir, kalau soalan ini diajukan seorang budak tadika kat cikgunya, macam mana cikgu tu nak jawab. Itu kalau budak. Kalau kau merantau negara lain, apa nak digoreng nanti.

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Thanks to Izzat for providing us a healthy medium to debate. Thanks to Zulhusni for sharing the brilliant thoughts and also many thanks to Dzar for wrapping it up in a complete and perfect answer of all the discussion.

This issue is a never ending topic to be discussed. The discussion is still going on, up until now. There will be updates from time to time for further comments.

Everyone is hoping for something for a change, and so do I.

Let us pray for a better Malaysia!

Salam Ramadhan al-Mubarak

2011-07-31T10:41:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Alhamdulillah, tahun ni kita berkesempatan untuk bertemu lagi dengan bulan seribu rahmat, bulan Ramadhan. Seronok sangat sebab tahun ni dapat puasa sebulan penuh di rumah. Dapat-la sahur, berbuka dan solat tarawih dengan Mama. Malam ni baru solat tarawih malam yang pertama, harapnya dapat-lah solat terawih tiap-tiap malam sampai malam terakhir Ramadhan nanti. Insya Allah...

May Allah bless us throughout this whole month of Ramadhan. Fulfill the month of barakah with endless ibadah, zikir and tadarus.

Selamat bersahur, selamat berpuasa dan selamat berbuka! =)

Macam biasa, bila menjelang puasa mesti teringat sangat dekat Abah.

We miss you, Bah... :'(

Di-Google

2011-07-28T09:32:00.000-07:00

Fuhhh... tak sangka ada jugak orang sudi nak Google mencari apa kejadah-nya benda alah "Mapieceofart" ni.

Terharuuu...

:')

Kepada peng-Google budiman tersebut...

...tima kasihhh...!

:)

Of Posting Statuses on Facebook Part II

2011-07-25T21:43:00.001-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

This time, it's a little bit different from the previous post of the same title. Today, I'm going to share what kind of statuses that are likely to be LOVED by your friends, and what are not.

Have you ever seen a status that says some positive words, that gives you a strong motivation, or a status of somewhat a campaign or awareness shared on Facebook? Or maybe just some beautiful and meaningful quotes on Mother's Day or Valentine's Day, that gives you the urge to share it on your page as well? I do. But not all and not every time. Only those that I think is important and beneficial towards others.

Last night, I wrote my status on Facebook (as shown in the picture). It's just my random thought, not referring to anyone in particular though.

And surprisingly, many friends were liking it, within minutes. Okay, seven aren't a big number but for the not-so-popular me, it is considered MANY.

Earlier this morning, I wrote a sort of no-smoking campaign on my status. Yes, I got it from my friend's profile. It is a social awareness message and I feel responsible to share it with everyone I love (my friends and family). So, I copy-pasted it as my status.

This is the Keep-Smoke-Away message I shared on my status. BUT, as you can see, there is only ONE people liking it, and it is my friend whom I took this message from.

Majority of my friends are smokers. My brother smokes, my neighbor smokes, my colleagues at work smoke, my classmates smoke, and some of my lecturers smoke too. But by posting such status, it doesn't mean that I discriminate them. It's the cigarettes that are harmful, not them. The cigarettes they are consuming are causing them - the people that I love - illnesses. I cannot stop them from the habit. I cannot grab their cigarette boxes and throw them away. It is their rights to smoke, but for others who don't, they have their rights to breathe in clean air too.

Thus, the least I can do is to share the awareness message, so they can read it and think. To like it or to hate it, it is up to you.

Yes, I truly feel bad if some of my friends are hating me because of the status. But I will not remove it just to make them feel better. That is not fair. That is bias. Hopefully, this explains my intention best, because obviously, the comment I added under the status is not understood well enough.

Peace, everyone. =)

Hide and Seek

2011-07-25T00:48:00.000-07:00

"Ready?"

"Yep."

"Okay. I'll count to ten. 1... 2... 3... 4... "

running away

"...5... 6... 7... 8..."

hiding

"..9... 10...! Are you hiding now?"

silent

"Haha... hide there til you rot to death. I'm not gonna find you anyway."

(running free and screaming)

"Happy? I'm glad that you are...!"

Perfect Song

2011-07-20T11:22:00.000-07:00

It's just a song, but it tells all that I feel about 'us'. Forgive me. Maybe that 'us' was a long history. And making it a history, isn't something that I'm proud of.

I've been twisting and turning
In a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in
closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been to long pretending
Theres no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
Pieces don't fit here anymore

You pulled me under
If I had to give in
Such a beautiful myth
That's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises
I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Oh don't misunderstand
How I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
But still I don't know why
No, I don't know why
I dont know why...... why...

* * * THE END * * *

Love, Don't Leave Me Tonight

2011-07-18T11:25:00.000-07:00

&amp;amp;amp;lt;a href="http://lauravall.bandcamp.com/track/love-dont-leave-me-tonight"&amp;amp;amp;gt;Love, Don't Leave Me Tonight by Laura Vall&amp;amp;amp;lt;/a&amp;amp;amp;gt;

Love, don’t leave me tonight
Please, love, don’t leave me tonight

I need you by my side,
To hold me in your arms,
I’ll try to ignore they are numb.

Love, tomorrow will come,
And you can go your way
Love, and you can end this parade

We fooled ourselves for too long,
We played this game too much times,
We knew it’d never work out,
We hoped love could save us
But what if there’s a new dawn?

Love, tomorrow will come,
And you can go your way
Love, and you can end this parade

We fooled ourselves for too long,
We played this game too much times,
We knew it’d never work out,
We hoped love could save us
But there’s no new dawn...

~ Laura Vall

The Last Song

2011-07-14T07:05:00.000-07:00

I almost didn't feel you
You were standing there
We were so close
Yet far apart
in the heart...

I almost didn't hear you
because all the laugh we shared
were left to rot
And the tears we shed
were all history left unspoken

I almost didn't see it
that it was the last song
that we sang together

And indeed
Forgiveness is not an option

Friendship is a tale

It was the saddest end
without us waving hands
without us saying goodbye....

Y.A.N.G.

2011-07-10T08:26:00.000-07:00

Yang bersuara, lontarkan...

Yang diam, simpankan...

Yang benci, teruskan...

Yang suka, sokongkan...

Yang betul, tegakkan...

Yang salah, tegurkan...

Yang kelam, terangkan...
Yang terang, jelaskan...

Tapi...

Jangan yang sambung, diputuskan...

Jangan yang ada, ditiadakan...

Jangan yang sayang, dijauhkan...

Jangan yang benci, didekatkan...

Jangan yang budi, dilupakan...
Jangan yang luka, dikenangkan...

Jangan yang hebah, didiamkan...

Jangan yang kawan, diakhirkan...

Terpulang...

Hati tak benci
Tapi kalau dah dibenci
Biarlah
Hilangkan, sorokkan
Putus sahabat, putus kawan
Bukan pilihan

Yang Maha Tahu
Hanya Tuhan...

Al-Kisah Bawang

2011-06-21T22:21:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Ini post suka-suka, sebab dah lama rasanya tak tulis apa-apa di blog. Hehe...

Sepanjang cuti ni, aku memang duduk di rumah tak ke mana. Selain ke hospital atas urusan kesihatan, kebanyakan masa aku spend di rumah je - tengok tv, main game, tengok movie, baca buku, makan, etc. Jarang sangat keluar melepak. Dan aku memang suka duduk rumah, dengan Mama.

Kecoh sekejap tadi. Al-kisahnya pegi membeli barang dapur di kedai dengan Mama. Terserempak pulak dengan Azri, jiran setaman - dia pernah mengorat aku masa tadika. LOL. Segan kejap, sebab pegi kedai tak sempat mekap (ehh...motif?). Ok, itu subplot je, tak ada kena mengena dalam ini cerita.

Banyak jugak barang dibeli. Ada beli beras, gula, tepung, bawang, ubi kentang, sabun cuci pinggan, semua lah. Nestum pun beli jugak, nak try masak butter prawn versi ayam kentang, sebab Mama tak boleh makan udang.

Mujur aku ikut sama, boleh tolong angkat barang masuk kereta. Selama ni, masa aku tak ada, Mama pergi beli barang sorang-sorang je. *sobss... =''(

Lepas dah angkat semua barang masuk kereta, kami pun balik lah ke rumah. Pastu bila dah sampai rumah nak mula memasak, baru perasan bawang takde dalam plastik.

"Ehh... kita bayar ke tidak bawang tadi ye?" Mama tanya aku.

"Entah, tak perasan pulak. Ce tengok ce tengok..." aku jawab.

Kami sama-sama kecoh mencari bawang yang hilang dengan penuh misteri tu. Aku dah pening (dan panik) mencari, last sekali baru teringat nak check resit. Satu-satu harga barang di-check, tapi harga bawang memang tak ada. Haihh...

"Kena pergi kedai balik lah ni, Ma..." aku kata.

Sebab nak cepat, aku dengan pakai three quarter dan t-shirt je terus merempit pegi kedai balik. Memang rupanya kami tak bayar bawang, plastiknya pun tertinggal dekat kaunter menimbang barang. Memang betul-betul tak perasan ada sebungkus bawang tertinggal. Dengan selamba kami balik rumah. Adoi la...

So, lepas dah beli bawang, baru lah hati rasa aman dan tenteram pastu balik rumah sambung memasak. Moment paling 'tacing' (katenye...), bila Mama jenguk dari dapur, Mama kata...

"Tima kasih ye, Ninie..." sambil senyum sengih meleret.

Happy-nya dalam hati sebab dapat senangkan Mama. Bangga, kembang semangkuk, rasa macam dah jadi hero pulak hari ni. Hero beli bawang. LOL.

Aku angkat kening je tanda sahut (wahh...).

"Sama sama..." aku jawab.

*sambil mata mengerling dekat abang yang tengah enak tidur dekat sofa.

Dalam hati aku berbisik (fuhh, ayat novel) "Habis tu, kalau bukan aku yang pergi beli, siapa lagi yang boleh diharapkan..."

Huhu... T_T

Kami Kaki Blogging...!

2011-06-11T09:24:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Agak dah lama jugak tak join contest di blog ni. And the last time ada benda tag menge-tag di blog ni, it was erm... maybe, two years ago? Itu pun suka-suka je, bukan contest yang serius.

Oh yes, I've been blogging for more than 4 years (kot). Hehe... thanks to Maisarah for tagging me in this 'Kami Kaki Blogging!' contest.....!!! *exclamation marks indicate the level of excitement.

And, so.... here it is...!

First of all...

THIS IS A VERY EASY CONTEST! =)

Here are the four very simple steps :

1) Write a blog post about this contest on your blog

2) Leave a link of your blog post in the comment box of this contest organizer, Farez

3) FOLLOW Farez's blog and LIKE his fan page on Facebook
(this is to help you getting the latest info about the contest)

4) Tag three (3) of your blogger friends and MAKE SURE that he/she knows about it

Dah masuk contest mesti nak dapat hadiah kan?

Wanna know what awaits you?

Tada....!!

RM50
+
mystery prize

(might be in cash or topup)

End of contest :

2 July 2011

♥ And my 3 dear friends I would love to tag is....

Rizuan Dan Apple
Firdaus Harry
Reez Tulis

Happy blogging...!

Boring Sunday

2011-06-04T23:21:00.000-07:00

I don't have any idea. I don't know what to write about. I don't feel like writing craps (of pseudo-artistic-like posts), so I just scroll through a few pages, read some nice blog posts and watch some nice videos - oh, that does not include the hot and controversial video by Gambit Saifullah. I have no interest at all to comment on the issue. Other people have said enough.

But this video by AnwarHadi, is really something awesome. I cried watching it.

I always follow his blog and his latest videos. He is one role model for the new generation (I think). Hehe...

Other than that, I play It Girl. ;)

I never had a boyfriend before. I don't know what love is like, though I have a clear picture of how it hurts or how it makes you happy. I learn it all through some friends' experiences, but having a relationship with Dustin (in It Girl) is hard enough for me. We are on the verge of breaking up now. =(

I guess, I only have to wait for the right person. Be it the first and the last. Insya Allah.

I am very much inspired by this post. Some of his reasons are similar to mine. Chill lah hang, AnwarHadi...! =D

Have a happy Sunday!

*though it is not a so happy Sunday for me. Huhu...

Of Posting Statuses on Facebook

2011-05-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

Contoh status A:

"I am so glad today! Weee~ XD"

Contoh komen B:

"Wah...apa yg happy sangat tu? =)"

Contoh jawapan A:

"Hehe...xde apa-apa lah. Ngee~"

Contoh jawapan B:

"Yeah... whatever... #_# "

Maybe NOT MANY people know how to post statuses correctly when you are on Facebook. It is a place to share, to discuss, to tell the world, to let people know things you do, or more or less, to seek attention (by posting such statuses, people would want to ask you about it, right? THAT is what I call seeking attention.)

It's not a wrong thing to do, though. Sharing is caring. There is nothing wrong with sharing your feelings or your excitement about something with everybody. And it is a total freedom for you to post anything you like as long as you don't make people go "WTF. Motifff nak post status camtu bagi orang tertanya-tanya, and now you are being secretive. WTF man, WTF!"

So, the moral of the story is.... you know. Yeah.

If you don't want to share, don't post anything about it. Simple!

*The example (of status) shown above is only fictional. It is not referring to anybody in particular. Cheers~

~~Bodoh~~ Poyo gila. Baik jgn post status kalau setakat nak tulis camtu!

-_-"

(Who Says) I'm Not Pretty?

2011-05-27T08:26:00.000-07:00

It's magic how a simple song can give you a beautiful feeling. It gives you an unusual strength to live through the hard times. And it's magic too how a song can soothe you when things go wrong and lifts you up from sorrow.

Most importantly, it's a perfect feeling when someone remembers you and links the song for you to hear (and makes you feel better).

Thank you. Maisarah Atan...! ♥ ♥ ♥

I wouldn't wanna be anybody else

You made me insecure

Told me I wasn’t good enough

But who are you to judge

When you’re a diamond in the rough

I’m sure you got some things

You’d like to change about yourself

But when it comes to me

I wouldn’t want to be anybody else

Na na na

I’m no beauty queen

I’m just beautiful me

Na na na

You’ve got every right

To a beautiful life

C'mon

Who says

Who says you’re not perfect

Who says you’re not worth it

Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting

Trust me

That’s the price of beauty

Who says you’re not pretty

Who says you’re not beautiful

Who says

It’s such a funny thing

How nothing’s funny when it’s you

You tell ‘em what you mean

But they keep whiting out the truth

It’s like a work of art

That never gets to see the light

Keep you beneath the stars

Won’t let you touch the sky

Na na na

I’m no beauty queen

I’m just beautiful me

Na na na

You’ve got every right

To a beautiful life

C'mon

Who says

Who says you’re not perfect

Who says you’re not worth it

Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting

Trust me

That’s the price of beauty

Who says you’re not pretty

Who says you’re not beautiful

Who says

Who says you’re not start potential

Who says you’re not presidential

Who says you can’t be in movies

Listen to me, listen to me

Who says you don’t pass the test

Who says you can’t be the best

Who said, who said

Won’t you tell me who said that

Yeah, oh

Who says

Who says you’re not perfect

Who says you’re not worth it

Who says you’re the only one that’s hurting

Trust me

That’s the price of beauty

Who says you’re not pretty

Who says you’re not beautiful

Always love yourself.

You are a beautiful girl.

♥

Das Verdammte Gedicht

2011-05-24T08:48:00.000-07:00

Sie
Ich hasse dich zu viel
Wenn ich nur könnte dich töten

Ich hätte es tun können Jahren

es gibt keine Worte

um Ihnen zu beschreiben
Ich werde nicht auf dich bei deinem Namen nennen
Sie verdienen es nicht
Holen Sie sich Ihre eigene Leben, Verlierer
und nutzen Sie die Hölle aus meinem Leben zu

Sie
Wir haben noch nie seit geraumer Zeit gesprochen
Ich hasse dich nicht
aber halt hoffen Dinge werden die gleichen sein wieder
wir sind von zwei verschiedenen Personen
zwei verschiedenen Seelen
widerstreitenden Seelen
Nochmals, ich hasse dich nicht
Dinge einfach geändert
und es könnte Jahre dauern
für alles zu sein wie früher

Uns
Ich weiß nicht

wie Sie uns beschreiben,
weil nichts noch nie gestartet
und ich gebe die Hoffnung
ja, lasst uns einfach so tun, als
wir sind beide Fremden
dass traf zufällig auf der Straße
wir sagten hallo
und dann verabschiedeten wir uns

Auf Wiedersehen...

Selamat Hari Jadi, Abah ♥

2011-05-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

Masa aku first day masuk Darjah 1, abah selalu tunggu dekat kantin sekolah bila waktu rehat. Hari-hari abah mesti bawak tupperware kuning susu KLIM gambar lembu dengan bekas air kesukaan aku warna merah corak petak-petak. Aku tak faham kenapa abah susah-susah tunggu aku setiap kali waktu rehat, tiap-tiap hari, padahal aku boleh je bawak bekal sendiri.

Bila aku makan, abah mesti duduk dekat sebelah. Bekal favourite - koeyteow goreng dengan telur mata. Air teh o. Telur mata tu abah dah koyakkan siap-siap, senang aku nak makan. Air teh pun abah tuang siap-siap dalam penutup bekas warna merah tu.

Abah akan tunggu aku makan sampai habis waktu rehat. Bila loceng bunyi, abah kemaskan semua bekas makanan dan lambai sampai aku masuk kelas. Hari-hari macam tu. Sampai lebih kurang dua tiga minggu, aku mula segan bila kawan-kawan gelak tengok abah temankan aku makan. Aku cakap kat abah, lepas ni tak payahlah datang waktu rehat. Aku boleh makan sendiri. Abah mula-mula macam skeptikal, tapi lama-lama dia bagi. Mulai esoknya, aku bawak bekal sendiri. Kadang-kadang abah bagi duit belanja. Aku beli makanan dekat kantin.

Bila dah besar sikit, nak masuk Darjah 6, aku datang bulan. Masa dulu-dulu, memang kurang dapat pendedahan. So, bila first time senggugut, aku panik gila dan nangis-nangis sebab sakit perut rasa macam nak mati, siap mengucap dua kalimah syahadah (kelakar pulak bila ingat balik). Sakit sangat sampai guling-guling dekat lantai. Masa tu pulak tak ada sapa kat rumah, abah dengan aku je. Abah tak tahu aku period, dia ingat aku gastrik. Abah pun letak la minyak panas dekat perut aku banyak-banyak. Tak lama lepas tu, agaknya sebab letih menangis dan berkesan lepas abah urut, sakit tu pun makin kurang sampai la aku terlena.

Entah kenapa dan bila mulanya, tak tahu di mana silapnya, aku makin tak rapat dengan abah. Aku tak suka bila abah ada. Sampai la masa Form 5, aku jadi ketua pengawas. Hari-hari kena datang awal sebab ada roll call sebelum assembly. Aku selalu marah abah sebab drive slow-slow (padahal aku yang lambat bersiap). Bila abah marah, dia drive laju-laju, aku tak puas hati pulak. Ada sekali tu, kereta rosak, abah kena hantar aku pegi sekolah naik motor. Rasa aneh, tapi dalam hati tiba-tiba rasa sayu sangat sebab dah terlalu lama rasanya tak peluk abah.

Bila akhir tahun, aku dapat anugerah cemerlang dan anugerah khas kepimpinan. Masa tu aku dapat nampak muka abah ceria sangat, meleret-leret dia senyum bangga. Lepas je selesai penyampaian anugerah tu, tak habis-habis abah suruh ambil gambar banyak-banyak sambil dia yang tolong pegangkan sijil dengan piala. Aku dah berpeluh ketiak sebab berjubah ala graduan time tu. Tapi bila tengok abah beriya-iya, aku ikutkan je kehendak dia.

Masuk tahun ni, dah tiga kali hari jadi abah tak ada. Masa abah ada dulu, aku tak pernah pun ingat tarikhnya. Kami jarang celebrate birhtday abah, malah rasanya langsung tak pernah. Tapi lepas ni, aku janji takkan pernah lupa lagi. Aku takkan lupa doakan abah tiap-tiap hari, agar sentiasa ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang beriman. Nini selalu sayang abah.

Selamat hari jadi, abah... ♥

Al-Fatihah...

Kiteretsu: Hajimete No Chuu

2011-05-16T09:48:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

I'm not really an anime or any Japanese cartoon fan. But I grew up watching some - I watched Tomato Man (the first and the earliest fave!), Doraemon (well, who doesn't?), Sailormoon (my sister was the real fan, I was just sitting there watching it with her), Cardcaptor Sakura, Slam Dunk, Shin Chan (-_-)", School Rumble, Chibi Maruko Chan, K-On, Ninja Boy, as well as Kiteretsu. Whoa...that was a pretty long list, uh?
(tadi kata tak minat. wekk...)

Oh, Kiteretsu is the most recently added in the list.

I know... I know... Some would say, "Are you kidding me? Kiteretsu???"

I was not much of a fan before, but there was one evening a month ago, I accidentally turned the TV on and there was Kiteretsu showing. I did not pay any attention until the song came up - the ending credit song.

The cute song melody kept playing in my head after a few days. And that was how it started. Since then, I waited for the cartoon on the same time every week, just to listen to the ending credit song. While waiting for the song, again, I accidentally watched the cartoon and I thought to myself, "this is not so bad after all." Yes, I know it imitates the characters in Doraemon but, what the heck, I love the ending credit song!

So, I went Google-ing for the title of the song for days, and it is 'Hajimete No Chuu' (First Kiss). I was like, woww... why do they put a song about first kiss in a cartoon show for kids? But, again, what the heck... I love the song! It is so very cute for all I care!

I Google-d for the lyrics and here it is :

Original / Romaji Lyrics

Nemurenai yoru kimi no sei da yo

Sakki wakareta bakari nano ni

Mimitabu ga FOR YOU 
Moeteiru FOR YOU 
Yatta yatta yatta yo OHH
*Hajimete no chuu kimi to chuu 
I WILL GIVE YOU ALL MY LOVE 
Naze ka yasashii kimochi ga ippai 
Hajimete no chuu kimi to chuu 
I WILL GIVE YOU ALL MY LOVE 
Namida ga dechau otoko no kuse ni 
BE IN LOVE WITH YOU
Deeto koosu ha mou kimetanda 
Ashita no yume ga fukurande kuru 
Kono ai wo TO YOU 
Itsumademo TO YOU 
Kitto kitto kitto sa OHH
*      *      *      *      *

English Translation

I can't sleep tonight, this is all your fault

Even though it was only moments since we said goodbye

My ears are  (for you) 
Burning red  (for you) 
Alright! Oh yeah, I did it! Ohh~
My first kiss was a kiss from you 
I will give you all my love 
Funny enough, I'm so full of these gentle feelings 
My first kiss  was a kiss from you 
I will give you all my love 
Though I'm a guy, my tears are starting to run down 
Be in love with you
I've already set the plans for our date 
My dreams of tomorrow has gotten bigger 
This love (to you) 
Will always be (to you) 
I'm positive! Absolutely! For certain!  Ohh~

Transliterated by Kikyosama

http://thesaiyajinpower.blogspot.com/

Translated by AzureDark
http://hallucino.livejournal.com

There you go. A very sweet lyrics too, eh? I can't believe a not-so-famous cartoon has a very cute and meaningful ending credit song! Some anime/cartoon series always use nonsense theme songs (mostly rock and they suck) but this one... ahh, I'm just loving it too much.

Oh, I've downloaded the original song too by Yumi Matsuzawa. Here it is :

Yumi Matsuzawa - Hajimete no Chuu

Powered by mp3skull.com

And this one is sang by the forever handsome and charming and uber cute Takuya Kimura. It was taken from 1995's Summer Minna Atsumare Party. He made all the girls screaaammm... yeah, including me. LOL!

So, because of the song, officially today I'm in love with Takuya Kimura!

Eh, salah! I in love with the song.

Hajimete No Chuu...!

LOL

K.A.R.M.A

2011-05-14T12:21:00.000-07:00

If you think life is unfair

Think again

If someone makes you cry today

Some time ago you've made someone cried and you just walked away

If you are annoyed of a person today

Some time ago you have annoyed someone the same way

If you are left alone with no friends today

Some time ago you must have done the same thing too, I must say

If someone lied to you today

Some time ago there was someone's trust you betrayed

If you feel wasted and useless

Just remember...

Some time ago you've put someone in pretty much the same mess

So, do you still think life is unfair?

Think again.

Of Music, Me and Music

2011-05-09T12:45:00.000-07:00

I listen to music twenty-four : seven.

4 years ago, people had started using 'nice' phones.

I'm the one left behind, with my old school Nokia.

A black-and-white screen phone...

...which you can use to text and call ONLY.

I love music so much, since forever.

I craved for an MP3 player.

So, I got myself one.

(Nobody bought it for me. I saved my cash for it)

I was happy with that MP3 player.

For almost a year, that MP3 player had been my best friend.

I plugged in to music during lectures.

In the train.

In the bus.

And in bed.

I listen to my favorite songs 'til I fell asleep.

But it fell off my bed one day.

I was in college and sleeping on the higher bunk.

It crashed on the floor.

The screen went blank.

I was so sad.

It was an accident.

Lucky me, my friend bought a new MP3 player for me.

I was happy again.

Today, many years has passed and I still keep it with me.

That very same MP3 player.

Small, thin and silver in colour.

=)

Last year, I finally got myself a new phone...

(I couldn't afford an expensive phone)

...I was overjoyed because I could store as many songs I wanted in it.

I was still not satisfied.

I couldn't 'hear' the music enough.

I felt like stuffing super big speakers in my ears.

So, I bought a headphone.

Now, I live in heaven.

With the drums banging.

With the bass guitar echoing in my head.

Oh, yes.

I enjoy every bit of music I listen to.

But I still love my old MP3 player.

=)

I've been listening to this song all day, today.

It sends me flying high in the blue sky.

You wanna know how that feels?

You can try here.

It might take you up there and you'll know how it really is when you're high.

*winks*

Oh, by the way, my MP3 player's name was Silver Apple.

And the headphone, her name is Schmug.

And my phone (that makes it all happen)

...the name is Bubulala C3.

I haven't figured out the gender just yet.

It remains unknown.

.....

♥ Selamat Hari Ibu, Mama...! ♥

2011-05-07T07:59:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

So, it is Mother's Day again. People are putting up some old pictures on Facebook. Some put up the pictures when they were babies - their mums holding them, some are sharing their photos when they were little kids, etc. I have loads of old photos, but I wish to keep them to myself. (masa kecik muka comot, tak comel...hehe) Most of the pictures were taken when my mum was young, so I don't wish to show the world the photos of my mum not wearing tudung. So, yeah... Tak payah upload lah kot. Cuma ada beberapa gambar ni jer, boleh lah di-share. =)

I don't really remember how I celebrated it last year, as usual there were wishes and gifts (o wait, was there a gift? Gosh...I feel so bad now... T_T). I am planning to take Mama out for a nice dinner, buy her a cake or something, or take her to karaoke. Well, I never get the chance to do it. Most of the time when the day comes, I was far away from home and I only get to wish her through the phone. Tak mampu nak buat video ucapan special untuk Mama macam yang Mat Luthfi buat tu. Huhu...

I am not gonna turn this into a sad post. Let this be a sweet dedication for my dear Mama...

Ma... I don't know how to start it, and I am not good with words. I just want to say that...

I miss you,

I need you,

I thank you,

I appreciate you,

I look up to you,

I owe you,

I wish I could hug you everyday,

and most of all...

I LOVE YOU, MAMA.

Ma... dari masa Mama mengandung, melahirkan, membesarkan dan mendidik Ninie dari kecik sampai la dah besar, Mama tak pernah merungut, apatah lagi tinggikan suara. Mama didik kami adik beradik dengan penuh sabar.

Thanks, Ma... for always being there.

Thanks for all your care.

Thanks for believing in me when others don't.

Thanks for everything you've done for me.

I can never repay you.

May you always be in the pink of health, semoga Allah panjangkan umur Mama, dikurnia sejahtera dunia dan akhirat. Aminn...

Gambar mengikut kronologi cerita. Sorry, gambar-gambar ni nampak kabur sikit sebab bukan scanned. Kalau ada masa (dan scanner), akan diperbaiki.

This picture was taken when I was 6 months old.

Tahu umur masa ni sebab Mama ada tulis kat belakang gambar dengan handwriting yang sangat classic -

"Adik Nini ~ 6 bulan ~ 9 September 1988"

Cute kan? I guess it's in the gene. Mama pun hot gak masa muda-muda dulu. Hehe...

Macam tomboy, tapi still pegang teddy bear, pakai baju kurung pink. =D

Pegi mengaji. Tapi sempat bergambar lagi.

Graduan kecik.

Grad peringkat tadika je pun, masa ni umur 5 tahun.

So, these are the photos of Mama's little girl (yang sekarang dah tak berapa little). Hehe...

Ma... tak ada hadiah yang mampu Ninie bagi sebagai balasan, selain daripada membuat Mama bangga dengan kejayaan Ninie dalam pelajaran.

Semua untukmu.

My mum is sweet, isn't she? ♥

Ninie sayang Mama selalu.

Last one, a song for Mama.

Mari Mengemas #2

2011-05-06T10:28:00.000-07:00

In my previous post that I wrote in November last year, I had this same feeling - full of memory of the old times - when I find those memorable stuff from the old stack of boxes in my sister's store room.

Old notes.

Old (jiwang) poems.

Old pictures.

Kenangan lama.

Kawan-kawan lama.

...

......

........

Kisah cinta lama... (ok, yang ini poyo sikit)

I'm the kind of person who love to keep the unneeded stuff - piece of notes, scribbles, receipts, even chocolate wraps - that remind me of any important events/incidents. So, that explains the content of my old boxes - they're mostly junks, things that you would probably call RUBBISH.

Out of all the rubbish that I kept, I found a small notebook containing quotes of love (baca: saya memang terlebih rajin menyalin balik SMS dari phone). I remember, those were the SMSes I got from a person. He's not someone that I call my sweetheart, but I used to think of him as a good friend, someone special and someone whose name I hoped would appear on my phone screen every single day.

Well, long story short. We never even met each other or went out like people would do on a date, There were just phone calls, SMS, voice mails (oh, I did sing to him. Feeling-feeling suara sedap kasi dia dengar dan termimpi-mimpi. Haha~). I don't even know him for real, but we were kinda close. Entahlah nak label-kan relationship masa tu sebagai apa. All I remember, I kept this special feeling for him but he didn't seem to make a move. Tapi sayang tu ada. Pelik, I'd rather label us 'scandal' than a couple. Tak declare pun. Hampeh sikit beliau ni. Suddenly, things became so lame, I got bored, we ended up with me being mad, he backed off and... that was it.

So, here's a series of sweet SMSes he sent me. I'm about to throw this stupid piece of note away, but before I do, this is the best way I could think of to 'preserve' the memory yang konon sweet. I know he didn't write all the messages, he got them from a friend and forwarded them to me (tak tahu-lah pulak kalau betul-betul dia create ayat sendiri. Kudos to him then). But considering his effort to send them to me, so okay-lah. SMS ni semua kira sweet la kot.

SMS 1:
We meet after a long time and we talk at 12.00 am in your room with lights off and no one at home. Then your phone rings downstairs. I ask you to come back after the call and you promise me. The person on the phone tells you that I died last night. Would you come back to your room as promised?

Komen: He meant it to scare me, tapi entah apa yang seramnya. Attempt failed. LOL.

SMS 2:
Love seeketh not itself to please, nor for itself to hath any care, but for another to give its ease and builds a heaven in hell's despair.

Komen: He wasn't even sure what exactly the message meant but he did send it to me anyways.

SMS 3:
Love is the fairest flower that blooms in God's garden. Feel love in whatever you do and you will get the pleasure in everything you do.

Komen: It sounds a lil wrong with the rhyme but yeah, whatever.

SMS 4:
I've got sunshine on a cloudy day. I've got you, babe. What you do and what you make, it makes my day. Morning, heart. May your day be brighter and sparkling like the sun today.

Komen: It's a line from a song. Ngeh. And as far as I'm concerned, the sun doesn't sparkle, a star does.

SMS 5:
As the dark goes by, the bright comes and say 'good day', a new episode has started. Let's enjoy the sunshine for today and make your day wonderful than yesterday...

Komen: L.A.M.E...

SMS 6:
There are a million stars in the sky above. They represent me accompanying you at night. Wish you to sleep tight. Good night, dearie...

Komen: Okey saje.

SMS 7:
Without a friend's love, days are sad-day, moan-day, tears-day, waste-day, thirst-day, fight-day, shatter-day. So, be in love everyday with a friend!

Komen: When I got this SMS, I thought he was about to tell me something else. Ye-lah, be in love with a friend? What would that suppose to mean kan? Cakap 'appreciate your friend' sudeh. Hehh~

SMS 8:
In the silence, you will hear a sweet melody of wind blowing up your night. In the dark, you will see a bright sparkling star shining up your dream. In your inbox, you will read the cutest person's message wishing you good night and praying for you to have a sweet dream...

Komen: CUTEST katenye! Hurm... yelah yelah. Agak sweet la yang ni, siap tolong berdoa dapat mimpi indah... huhu...

SMS 9:
Friendship is like an onion. It has many layers in it and it will add taste to your life. But, if you try to cut it, you will have tears in your eyes. Friends forever.

Komen: Ok, sweet. Tapi suddenly tukar mode 'friendship forever' pulak. Sangat confuse.

SMS 10:
Like the ocean and the shore, always be together.
Like the stars at night, always be there together.
Like me remembering you, always and forever.
Good night, sweetie.

Komen: Macam ayat direct translation sikit tapi considered okey-lah. sebab ada tulis sweetie kat situ. One of nama-nama cute he used to call me, besides muchukk. Yeah yeah, I know (euww euwww)

SMS 11:
Let me be your angel for tonight. I will take you to the neverland, so that you can dream and dream and dream never end.
Let me be your angel for tonight. I will make sure you will have a good night and sleep tight til the night end.

Komen: Might not be approved as a nicely rhymed poem, but wth. LOL.

There were loads more he sent me, and I still keep it in my old phone. Apahal entah, lupa nak delete agaknya. Biar-lah, maybe 10 years from now I would look back at these SMSes and they would be the best laughing stock ever.

And since then, I have no one SMS-ing me good morning and good night, asking me what I'm doing like in every minute of everyday. Tak bercinta tapi masa tu memang rasa happy sebab ada orang ingat kita selalu dan ambil berat.

Cuma... he didn't have the guts to ask me out.

Foto curi dari tumblr Cik Lynn ♥

Yeah, I'm single and I'm happy.

Announcement promosi tak boleh blah:
Saya nak yang stok chinese look je. Tinggi, smart and funny. Hensem is optional. Anyone interested? Boleh amik borang dulu, kaunter bukak besok pukul 8.00 pagi.

Thank you.

♥

H.E.A.D.A.C.H.E

2011-04-23T14:43:00.000-07:00

It's late.

That's it.

I quit.

Damn it.

A Choice For A Change? Or Worse?

2011-04-19T01:36:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

E-cigarette.

Do you know what an e-cigarette is?

I believe you would go on Google to search for it. Here, I've made the Googling work easy for you. Complete with a video of how it actually works.

Yeah, that's how.

The e-cigarette or electronic cigarette is an option for a healthier way to smoke. It uses rechargeable batteries, is nicotine free, whatever chemical free and it comes with various flavors. I have heard of it before but didn't pay much attention to know more. However today while browsing through friends' pages and blogs, I found this site - telling and selling e-cigarettes called SmokerHaven.

I wonder, does this provide a better choice for smokers out there for a safer way of smoking? Or does it cause smoking to become a more popular trend and more teenagers will start to smoke for the sake of style? I don't smoke, so I cannot answer how does it feel or how cool it is to be a smoker. For me, it doesn't help the campaign "Katakan TAK NAK kepada rokok" in any way, AT ALL. And obviously, it costs more. Expensive kot benda alah ni. A starter kit costs $90. Murah?

It's going to be a new lifestyle too. Just imagine, instead of having a normal conversation such as :

"Der, kau pegi mana tadi?"

"Pegi kedai. Beli rokok." *sambil memetik lighter.

"Ohh...pegi tak ajak. Eh...hisap sorang nampak. Bak sepam dua."

"Takde hal. Nah."

... we can now hear a different conversation, well, of sharing cigarettes.

"Der...rokok aku da abis. Lupa beli. Pinjam rokok kau sebatang."

"Tak boleh, der. Rokok gua tengah caj tu. Kejap lagi ar."

"Ahh...kedekut. Blah ar, baik gua keluar beli baru ah, siap dengan flavor baru. Lu ade?"

"Ahaa...bagus gak. Belikan gua sekali bateri baru. Yang sekarang punya dah kong pulak. Gua hisap tak berasap."

Strange? Haha...

Well, you make the decision. IMO, this is not the solution. The choice is in your hand. If you wanna quit smoking, just do it. Do not hesitate. No need for a new technology invention to fulfill your need to smoke. It's just another excuse when NiQuitin lozenge doesn't work for you.

Or perhaps I'm wrong. Maybe it is safe and healthier to smoke an e-cigarette.

What do you think?

Let's share our views.

=)

I Do

2011-04-18T08:48:00.000-07:00

Whenever I try to write something

I try not to think of anyone

Even now it's my report I'm writing

It's you again that crossed my mind

Why is it so hard to forget

Eventhough it has been days since I left

And this song reminds me of love

and it made wanna sing I do... I do, I do do do do do dooo...

Haha!

Okay, I do.

I really do... love you.

*wink*

♥

N.A.K. K.A.W.I.N.

2011-04-12T10:35:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Siapa tak pernah fikir pasal kawin? Cuba angkat tangan macam teman nih haaa... *golek golek tangan*

Siapa tak pernah fikir? Siapa?

Ada.

Orangnya....

..........

.......

...

Saya.

*****************

Bila orang tanya pasal kawin, jawapan paling klise semestinya;

"Alah... muda lagi lah. Gila ape nak kawin muda-muda!"

"Mana ada duit nak kawin."

"Enjoy ah dulu. Apa barang kawin awal."

"Err... nak kawin dengan sape ye? Saye ni boyfriend/girlfriend pun takde. Saye tak nak jadi perigi cari timba..."

Okey. Jawapan saya ada dalam salah satu contoh di atas.

Rasa aneh jugak sebenarnya bila fikir/tulis pasal kawin ni. Tapi lepas sorang... sorang kawan-kawan sekolah kawin. Kawan tadika pun ramai yang dah kawin. Yang dah beranak pinak pun ramai. Macam tak percaya. Semua dah berkeluarga, dah ada baby, profile pic siap letak gambar anak. Rasa macam baru semalam belajar sama-sama kat sekolah, tup-tup dengar cerita dah kawin. Betapa cepatnya masa berjalan.

Kahwin. It's like you have reached your life peak, your destiny: getting together with your loved one and spend the rest of your life with him/her. How sweet.

Bercakap pasal benda-benda begini, it's something I don't do much. Nak jadi cerita, pagi ni tengok TV9 dengan kakak. Ada interview Ashraf Muslim. Selama ni takde lah pun minat sangat dekat beliau, tapi rancangan di TV tu reveal macam-macam perkara yang selama ni orang tak tahu tentang beliau.

He's super multi-talented. Mungkin jugak sebab watak beliau dalam drama selalu di-portray dengan watak orang baik-baik, alim dan kacak (nota: saya tak pernah tengok drama bersiri Ustaz Amirul tu, tengok iklan je), imej beliau pun nampak bersih dan baik setiap masa.

Dalam rancangan TV yang saya tengok pagi ni, baru-lah pertama kali tahu yang Ashraf Muslim ni bukan setakat pandai berlakon je, malah beliau ni seorang usahawan muda. Tak sangka beliau ada ternak ayam dan kambing. Bagus kan? Artis zaman sekarang kena pro-aktif. Mana boleh bergantung dengan hasil job menyanyi/berlakon je. Selain tu, beliau pandai main flute ok. Kau ada? Agaknya (saya bajet-bajet la) sambil beliau jaga kambing, mesti sandar kat pokok sambil tiup flute lah tu. Hehe... Kacak bergaya.

Akhir sekali, yang paling best tentang Ashraf Muslim ni, beliau ada pusat perubatan Syifa'. Dia sendiri antara beberapa orang yang mengubat pesakit yang datang. Malah dia merantau serata Malaysia mengubat orang sakit. Ya Allah... lengkapnya pakej beliau ni. Dah-lah kacak, lemah lembut, beragama, tampan dan muka bersih sejuk hati memandang, banyak bakat pulak tu, pandai menternak lagi, walaupun hensem dan glemer, beliau tak jijik pun bela ayam dengan kambing. Cuba suruh Awal Ashaari, mau ke dia bela kambing? Semestinya beliau akan kata "Euwww euww..." je sepanjang masa. Huhu... *andaian je nih ok. Pendek kata, Ashraf Muslim ni memang sangat menjadi idaman ibu-ibu mertua dan gadis-gadis lah.

Jadi, point-nya di sini, sambil menonton rancangan tu, saya spontan ter-cakap depan kakak, "Hayom, aku nak kawin la dengan Ashraf Muslim ni..."

Lalu, Hayom menjawab spontan jugak, "Kawin la. Dia baik, hensem, ada pusat perubatan Syifa' lagi. Memang elok sangat." Tapi ada statement tak sengaja saya ter-cakap selepas ayat ni, terus dapat 'amboi...gatal...!' setepek. Adeh!

Kembali ke persoalan awal tadi, saya betul-betul serius ni nak kawin dengan Ashraf Muslim. Sebagai langkah permulaan, saya dah like page beliau di Facebook serta status-status yang beliau post. Saya tahu, saya kedengaran 'berangan lebih' dengan tindakan ini, tapi mana tahu, jodoh Tuhan yang tentukan. *muka serius*

Keputusan ni adalah keputusan terbesar yang saya pernah buat dalam hidup saya. Malah, saya hampir pasti 110% yakin hendak berkahwin dengan Ashraf Muslim kerana awal-awal lagi mak saya dah reject Fahrin Ahmad.

"Ma, hensem tak Fahrin tu, Ma? Orang nak kawin dengan dia boleh?"

"Hishh...tak nak lah Mama dapat menantu macam tu. Dia tu tak lawa."

Lawa?? Ok, Fahrin tak lawa. Reject.

Untuk terakhir kali, saya mengesahkan yang saya serius nak kahwin dengan Ashraf Muslim.

Ashraf, saya suka awak.

Photo taken from here

Oleh itu, sesiapa yang baca post ini, *malah kalau abang Ashraf sendiri...woohoo!*

Sila-lah support saya dengan meng-klik di sini.

Tak susah pun, ada a few details perlu di-isi, daftar jadi ahli komuniti remaja dan kita sama-sama boleh kumpul duit sambil ber-Facebook, ber-Twit dan ber-blogos. Dalam kes saya, ia di-klasifikasi-kan khas dan wajib klik, sebab saya nak kumpul duit nak kawin dengan Ashraf Muslim. Ada duit lebih dari hasil yang saya dapat nanti, saya nak belanja Ashraf Muslim makan di Restoran Cabai atau TGI Jumaat.

Terima kasih, semua.

=)

My So-Called Love Poem

2011-04-11T02:26:00.001-07:00

I sat there quietly
with my coloring book open
Took my pencil colors out
I got it all nice and sharpened
Everything was set on
so I started to color
without a word

My best friend came later
She sat next to me
We always do things together
We were close, the closest two girls could be
Her name was Liyana
I could still remember her face
Her eyes were bright and tiny
and she always sit with me most of the days

So, HE came into the class
wearing the same smile
though the day shine or rain
I whispered to Liyana
"Oh no, there he comes again!"
He smiled from ear to ear
I knew it long before that he liked me
But I ignored him most of the time
Coz' it felt weird every time he got near

His name was Azril
He sat near me again
I didn't expect what he was going to say to me
when he came close
and said "I love you" in my ear

Well, I ran away
and Liyana giggled
I was five that time
and I didn't know what love is
All that I remember
After the incident
we played together sometimes
but I stopped seeing him a year later

Now years and years have passed
The story is long left unspoken
But today, I feel the love again
But I'm not sure
if it's the same kind of feeling
that I felt 18 years ago

You, (yes you)
whom I wrote this so-called love poem for
You,
whom I love to look at
when you smile so sweetly
whose giggle is the cutest
Those I can only see
when I made the silliest joke

I don't know how to start it
but I know what I feel
You might not know it
and you don't know how to know
Here, let me tell you...

This is our biggest secret
It's so simple to say
those magical three words...

I....

Love....

D.O.M.O....!!!

Now, have I made myself clear?

Let's go for a movie...!

Jom?

=D

Love Yourself

2011-03-28T20:32:00.000-07:00

I used to think that...

I don't look good enough.

I am not a smart girl.

I am not famous.

I don't have many friends..

I am not an important person.

I'M INVISIBLE.

But since I met you, I see more of me.

Now, I'm happy because I've someone telling me that...

I'm beautiful.

I'm smart.

I have more self confidence.

I'm not invisible.

I am loved by the people around me.

I have the sweetest voice when I sing.

I AM UNIQUE, in my own way.

I am happy being me today. I would never wanna look back and make myself sad. (NZSARNO, 2011)

So, if you used to feel the way I felt before, PLEASE, STOP FEELING THAT WAY. Smile, and be proud of yourself. LOVE YOURSELF before you love others. =)

I always adore Adibah Noor. Well, I like Yuna too. Here, watch them doing the coolest stunts no one have ever seen any girl does. Woohoo!

Come and Join Me!

2011-03-25T21:29:00.000-07:00

I am now a community of SAYS.my.

Meh, come and join me! It's fun (when you get to earn some cash while blogging and Fb-ing and Twitting)!

Click HERE!

=)

Smile, and Make Others Smile Too

2011-03-21T19:56:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

It rained heavily last night, it was not so sunny this morning. I love this kind of weather - cold and gloomy. I took the LRT to work. It wasn't crowded as usual. I glanced at my watch, I was early today. No wonder.

So, I walked out of the station and paced towards the office. When I crossed the road, I saw something that touched me deep in the heart. There was an Indian pakcik with amputated legs struggling to move on a wheelchair - all by himself.

Oh, he sure as hell didn't look like this.

... but pretty much like this. Lebih kurang lah.

So, this pakcik was struggling his way to the temple - I was just guessing because many Indians pray there - they would take off their shoes, light a fire on the coconut and then break it, some would wear sindoor (the read mark on the forehead) too. I always enjoy the view while walking to the office everyday.

It rained yesterday so there were potholes on the road - and that pakcik was moving with his wheelchair through them all. I was thinking, where's his sons and daughters? Why is he alone? Without hesitating, I approached him and asked if he needed my help. He said thanks. I know it's going to be hard for him because the way to the temple is hilly and steep, and the road was busy too. So I pushed him slowly up the hill on his wheelchair.

We had a lil conversation. I asked him where he's from. He said he came all the way from Shah Alam to go to the temple. It's a good temple and every Indian goes here. I nodded. When we reached the temple, he thanked me and I waved him goodbye. I turned back and saw him putting his hands together with his eyes closed - he started praying.

I was amazed of his determination. He must be a religious Hindu, all he wanted to do is to go to the temple, no matter what. I thought to myself, he has no legs and is wheelchair bound, yet he still made his way this far just to pray to God. I have legs and hands and strength and I'm a pro when it comes to using public transportation, but I still complain on how far I have to travel to go to the hospital for check ups. Ya Allah...

I hope he got his blessings today - and throughout his life. And I hope he'll manage to make his way back to Shah Alam safely. Aminn...

It Is Supposed to be A Tima-kasih List

2011-03-20T23:29:00.000-07:00

It's A New Record!

..... 142 birthday wishes...

..... 827 hugs...

..... 577 kisses...

..... 1,478 presents...

... and lots and lots and lots of love...!

Thanks, everybody...

... and happy birthday, me ...

Yayy!

On Hiatus

2011-03-10T03:20:00.000-08:00

I have not been to work for two days and it's going to be three including tomorrow. I got appointments to go to, doctors to consult with and a lot of pills to swallow.

No worries.

I'm not sick.

Just a little unwell.

I'll be fine.

Do pray for me, okay.

Thanks...

I'll write again.

Soon.

=)

F.L.A.W.S.

2011-03-05T00:46:00.000-08:00

Khalil Gibran cakap, "Sahabat adalah keperluan jiwa yang mesti dipenuhi.
Dialah ladang hati, yang kau taburi dengan kasih dan kau subur dengan penuh rasa terima kasih. Dan dia pulalah naungan dan pendianganmu. Kerana kau menghampirinya saat hati lupa dan mencarinya saat jiwa memerlukan kedamaian."

Aku tak kata beliau salah. Tapi aku suka nak menambah, "Sahabat itu paling ramai kala kau tidak memerlukan (waktu suka) dan paling sedikit, malah hampir tidak ada kala kau paling memerlukan (waktu duka). Dan sahabat yang paling baik itu adalah diri kau sendiri, jika kau kenal siapa diri kau dan kau mencintai diri kau sepenuhnya."

Nak tambah lagi (ehh...banyak pulak. LOL), "Memiliki sahabat yang paling baik itu bukanlah mencari persamaan, tetapi menerima perbezaan yang dia miliki."

Accept the differences. Never look for the things you share in common.
Itu nonsense.

I Am Number Four: Not A Four-Star to Me

2011-02-26T08:33:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

So, I went to watch I Am Number Four (IAN4). Location: GSC Alamanda.

I was there on the dot; took a few minutes for the ticket, lining up for popcorn and drink (compulsory) and I went right in just seconds before the movie started.

I was thinking to watch No Strings Attached at first, but I changed my mind due to the following reasons :

1) The movie (IAN4) poster was the first thing that I saw when I got there
2) I remembered having Alex Pettyfer's poster back at home (okay, he's cute)
3) I thought Michael Bay is the director, but it turns out that he's the producer. The real director of IAN4 is D.J Caruso (who the hell is this guy?) But somehow, considering the impact that Transformers gave me, I was kinda expecting the same thing for IAN4
4) I was craving for some popcorn for so long, any movie will do
5) I don't wanna watch Kembar Siang

All seats were full. I was lucky enough to get the very last seat at the top. Well, I don't mind. As long as I can enjoy the movie without having to sit next to a noisy bunch of idiots or an uninvited movie critic, I am all good.

The first 10 minutes of the movie was lame. I'd say the screen was a little bit too dark (it might be Caruso's intention to not revealing too much of action for a start). There was this anonymous creature attacking and killing two guys. One was trying to escape and ran through the forest (I thought it was Pandora - Avatar) but he was killed anyway.

The plot shifted to a bunch of partying teens on the beach. Daniel Jones (Alex Pettyfer) was showing his cool riding on the jet ski with some stunts. Lalalaaa... he's cute lalalaaa then it came to the part when he received a warning sign. He had a blue light coming out from his leg (why on the leg? Why??) He had another scar; of which a sign that Number 3 was dead; and he will be the next. The audience went "oohhh...so, he is Number Four..." and came to the understanding of the whole incident. Daniel ran away. I hate this part. It was when the character started to tell a long history of his being. I call it a lazy story-telling. A good director has to think of some other ways to inform the back story rather than having the character telling it all. Boring.

Okay. So, Number Four is an alien - a handsome one - from planet Lorien. He and Henri (the guardian) came to Earth after their planet was destroyed and they needed to hide away from the Morgadorians who hunt and kill The Garde - consists of nine teenage Loriens with special legacies and power.

Daniel constantly changed his name and also moved from one place to another to keep himself safe from the Morgs. When he moved in Ohio, he was known as John Smith. Trying to make a life like a normal kid, he went to high school and fell in love (woohoo!). He met Sarah Hart (this is no you, Cik Maisarah Atan...hehe!) and instantly liked her. So did she. I like her character (Dianna Agron) whom is calm, sweet, old-fashioned and most importantly, she's a photographer!

John started to develop more of his powers - light coming out from his hands, he became resistance to heat and fire, but unfortunately every time he did, he was in school. The people around him began to feel curious about him including Sam Goode (Callan McAuliffe), the school freak who believed in aliens. This guy reminds me of Kurt Hummel in Glee - but Kurt is way 'pussier' than Sam is. LOL.

The plot came to the peak when the Morgs finally spotted John. There were tonnes of action - boom here and bang there, but I must say John wasn't the ultimate hero because there came Number Six (Teresa Palmer) saving him. She was way cooler than John - she killed all the Morgs in seconds while John is hiding with Sarah behind the wall. Oops...

Okay, too much on the plot already. Long story short, they managed to fight the Morgs and it was all happy ending. John and Number Six together with Sam moved to a safer place because the Morgs will never stop searching for them. John promised Sarah that he'll come back and find her... lalalalaaa kiss... and the end.

Here goes some trivia:

1) After some research, the movie was actually made based on a novel written by Pittacus Lore. But comparing the two, the movie was more compact and not so lengthy.

2) The movie does not portray Emily, Sarah's best friend and the revelation of John's power was spread through the papers - not shown in the movie.

3) The most sad parts were when Henri died and Bernie Kosar, the dog returned to John wounded - he transformed (Transformers too?) into a beast fighting over the unknown deadly creature of the Morgs. I cried, well, just a little. But the dog's transformation reminds me of Milo in The Mask when he tried putting on the cursed mask. The CGI-fx was kinda fake and it made it look hilarious, but, what the heck. Pettyfer looks cuter, and that is all that matters. Haha!

4) The best line ever was when Number Six asked John to re-charge her - she's draining out of energy. When he's done, Number Six smiled and said, "Red Bulls are for pussies." LOL!

5) John still had the time to go to the school (WTF?) with Sarah when the Morgs were so near to get him. I think that was so helpless romantic (PUKE!). The enemy was going to kill you in no time and you could still spare a few minutes with your girlfriend looking at some photos? Amaigadddd...

6) The deadly creature of the Morgs look like a retarded lizard. You know, it is not-so-scary. It gives me the same idea of the monster in Clash of The Titans. Try to think of something deadlier lah, weyh... Think more creatively. (no worries, the director doesn't read my blog)

7) There might be a sequel made after IAN4 since the novel was followed by another book - The Power of Six. For that, we will have to wait and see.

Over all, this movie did not give me much surprise. The plot is very predictable, the Morgs' look (the gills and the bald head) were something I've seen before. Nothing much surprising. Therefore, this movie isn't a four star to me (though, I still think Pettyfer is cute.) Okay, I said that for the third time.

I give it 3 stars out of 5.

Soup of the Day

2011-02-24T03:23:00.000-08:00

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that
everything happens for a reason."

Thanks for the beautiful words, Albert.
~0^_^0~

Kemahiran Bertimbang Rasa

2011-02-22T02:17:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Hari-hari saya naik train pergi ke tempat kerja. Hari-hari saya berdiri sepanjang perjalanan hinggalah tiba ke stesen akhir tempat saya perlu turun. Boleh dikira berapa kali saja saya pernah duduk, jarang sangat. Perjalanan ke ofis saya setiap hari bukanlah dekat, makan masa sejam juga tambah tolak masa menunggu dan berjalan kaki. Letih? Tak kisah, sebab saya seronok. Payah? Mungkin, bagi orang yang dah biasa selesa dan tak sanggup berpeluh. Tapi, saya tidak. Saya okey saja melalui rutin yang sama setiap hari. At least, dapat segarkan mata tengok pemandangan pagi, gelagat orang ramai dan jejaka-jejaka kacak. Eh? Hehe...

Terpaksa berdiri, perjalanan jauh dan mengambil masa lama, ini semua tak jadi masalah, sebab saya orang muda. Tapi, saya paling tak suka bila keadaan ini berlaku. Setiap kali seorang pakcik/makcik/atuk/nenek (pendek kata, orang tua) melangkah masuk ke dalam train yang penuh semua tempat duduknya, tiada seorang pun di kalangan orang muda (yang sedang enak duduk belaka) sudi bangun dan beri tempat duduk mereka kepada orang tua yang lebih memerlukan. Macam buat-buat tak nampak, selamba saja orang-orang muda ni duduk selesa.

Saya paling sedih lihat keadaan macam ni, sebab bila tengok makcik-makcik berusia terpaksa berdiri terhuyung-hayang, kadang-kadang terketar-ketar lututnya dan bawa barang banyak pula, tiada lain yang saya ingat, saya mesti terbayangkan emak saya. Sedih. Rasa macam nak marah pun ada, tapi tak terkeluar suara nak menegur orang-orang muda yang tak ada sivik itu. Saya bukan pengawas dalam train itu. Mungkin esok kalau benda ni terjadi lagi depan mata, saya akan beranikan diri tegur mereka supaya bangun beri seat mereka kepada orang-orang tua. Insya Allah.

Benda ni tak perlu diajar kat sekolah. Masing-masing boleh berfikir dan kemahiran bertimbang rasa ni datang sendiri, asalkan hati kita baik dan prihatin dengan keperluan orang lain. Bukan susah pun.

Isn't Friendship A Type of Relationship Too?

2011-02-19T08:56:00.000-08:00

According to a post here (thank you so much, Sarah), it says so. Even if I go Google-ing for the definition of friendship, here's what comes out.

What? Oh, you never Google for it before? You know, you should! It helps you to understand better. Maybe, it can also help you mend what's broken.

No worries, I'll lend you a hand.

Here are all the links. With complete explanation of what friendship really means. You can click on the sources, they're all links to the full web page.

E-zine : "Friendship is a personal relationship shared between each friend for the welfare of other, in other words, it is the relationship of trust, faith and concern for each other feelings. It is a relationship of mutual caring and intimacy among one another. A friend is one who knows you as a person and regards you for what you are and not what he or she is looking in a good friend. Best friend is one who accepts the good as well bad qualities of his friend and also takes an initiative in correcting and mending them. Friendship is a distinctive kind of concern for your friend, it is a relationship of immense faith and love for each other.

(I intentionally copy-pasted the full article, coz it makes me feel warm reading it over and over again. I hope you read it too.)

Friendship is all about how much you care and understand each other. It is a pure relationship, which would make your friend smile, feel good as to how much you love him and care for him. It is all about talking, listening and building up a strong relationship loyalty among each other. It is string of love which develops gradually with each others involvement. In certain cases friendship may not last for a longer period and might end up or lose its prime importance of love and regard for each other. There are some friendships which might end with unresolved conflicts and tiffs which means that these type of relationship were not so strong that could hold on their own in adversity and bad times. Friendship is not about merry-making and fun it involves equal loyalty from both the partners.

It should be understood that not all friends are best friends. One might come across numerous number of friends in his life but there are very few who will be their during your ups and down. How one should recognize your best friend the one who will understand your strengths and shortcomings and would be with you in all your good and bad phases of life.

A true friendship does not consist of a huge number of friends you keep but it is valued by its worth and capability to hold you and stand by you in all phases of life.That said finding a best friend from among your friends is the hardest task to do. A lot of people say that the best friends automatically come closer from among a group of friends and you will never have to make an extra effort to do find one. That is how the strong bond between true friends is formed.

You can also find it in Wikipedia. Oh, this is sweet. Wiki provides the longest definition with examples and also very fine details.

And this last but not least, from Mwolk.com. It is also as sweet.

So, after all that we shared today, isn't it clear and obvious that friendship (too) is a bond between two friends (or more)?

I haven't come to the understanding of how to not having a bond (ikatan) in friendship. To me, not having a bond (Parti Perikatan kah... atau apa-apa perikatan lah...) is not having the value of true and sincere friendship. I don't get it if anyone thinks that the beautiful bond of friendship is somewhat a burden (beban/kongkongan/ke-terikat-an). It's something you treasure, for the whole time of your life.

Do not get me wrong. I mean no offense. This is an honest sharing. Bear with it if you feel upset because of this post. I'm truly sorry, from the deepest bottom of my heart.

I love all my friends.

I love you.

=)

So, What's The Plan Now?

2011-02-18T00:53:00.001-08:00

Many asked me before, what does 'Mapieceofart' stand for?

"Is it some combination of your name?"
"A band that you like?"
"Someone you adore?"

I don't answer.
You figure it out yourselves, people.

Those who understand me would simply say,
"It's my-piece-of-art. What is so hard about it?"

Those who don't understand me would say,
"Mapie-ceo FART."
Stressing the 'Fart' part.
Some would even call me 'Mapie' for short.

What the heck?

Obviously they don't understand it.
And directly I could judge, they don't understand me.
They never gonna be a good friend to me.

A good friend understands easily. No need to explain things.
They just do.

So, why My-Piece-Of-Art?

I blog mostly about me. Things I like, things that happen in my everyday life, things I don't agree with, it can be somewhat a journal of my love experience, sadness, my poems collection, movie reviews, it's all random.

It's my piece of art. It's about my life. My life is an art. A beautiful art.

I had once written down this dilemma in a post previously, of what I should really write in this blog. It has been three years now but I still can't decide. I just write about everything. In random. Is it compulsory to have a certain theme/genre for your blog?

A few days back had been one of those emotional times of my life. I was not really sad. I didn't cry. I was just upset. So, I ended it, right there. I had enough. It is about time for me to step up and think about what I should do for myself and stop thinking about others. They don't care about me. I'm effin' sick of people using me. And I got nothing in return.

So what's the plan now?

Will we or won't we?

So what's the deal now?

Should we or shouldn't we?

Empty is what you find in here.

Empty is what you are.

Sepolta Viva

2011-02-06T03:47:00.000-08:00

I love music.

Classical, modern, pop, nasyid, hardcore, hip hop.

You name it.

I love it all.

And when I do, I just do. Without any reasons.

So, if you ask me why I like this song so much, I don't have the answer.

I just can share it with you.

Hoping that you can feel the 'feel' it gave me.

Enjoy.

=)

*If you are wondering what's the meaning behind the title of this song, it's 'buried alive'.

Happy Belated Birthday, Bloggie!

2011-01-27T18:45:00.000-08:00

I've been busy lately. Too busy. Until I missed one important day.

My blog's birthday.

It was 10 days ago. How sad. I am one forgetful old lady.

By the way, happy belated birthday, my dear bloggie.

I will always write in here.

Never gonna stop.

<3

Tuesday Morning Blues

2011-01-24T18:56:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

It has been three weeks since I started working here. And oh! It was centuries ago since I last wrote in here. Huhuh...

I am now an intern at Astro Awani. No, I don't read news. I write the news, but mostly I do research on the current issues. I will not appear on TV unless I'll be the media representative for the shows. Or maybe I might be seen walking around the office or just sitting at my desk when they have a crossover for the 8.00pm news. But I'm no celebrity, like my mum thought I would be.

Living on your own (literally on your OWN) is not easy. I live with strangers (who turn out to be really friendly, except for my room mate). I take public transport everyday and got home again past 11 o'clock (often), especially on the days with late night meetings. I walk all the way, maybe 4 km back and fro every single day. The journey to work is always tiring but it won't break my spirit just like that. I'm strong remember...? LOL.

At the work place, I have super nice colleagues. All the people here are extremely nice too. I am working together with Suhaimi Sulaiman (oh man, I adore him since long ago. He's always confident and brilliant and cool about everything.) Everybody at the newsdesk - of which I could only see then on TV before, I can now meet them everyday - what are you thinking? I work with them! And guess what, I get to meet Cerenna, my old friend from primary school. She's gorgeous now. I could still remember his boyish hair when we were in Standard 3.

Basically I'm in the non-bulletin/hybrid division. I deal with the current issues - things I don't give a damn about before - especially politics. But since the first day I was here, it all has changed rapidly and it gives me a whole new perspective. No work comes without a challenge. So is mine. I work hard for every task given. I don't wanna do it the easy way. I need to have a good impression. Fuhh... berdedikasi kan? Wiwiwii...

My life? I like it more than ever. I like being busy. It takes me away from being emotional - you know, I get hurt and upset easily. I don't know what was really happening but something that a friend did made me feel like a fool. I understand things don't go as planned all the time, but just tell me the real thing, I won't get mad. Maybe I am not that important. You can go around and cancel it though you knew I was jumping like a happy bean when I was told that you'll come. But you didn't. And later, I come to know the truth. A day out with me sounds no fun. But lepak-ing til late? Now that sounds like real fun huh. I don't feel right but I don't care. I understand I always come third... maybe fourth... or the last. Coz I'm the least important, right?

Sometimes, people just don't get me, they don't understand the way I feel about things . You think I'm emo? Hell no... I am a happy person. Even if I'm unhappy, I try my best to look like I'm the happiest person on earth. Hypocrite, if that's what you call it. But I prefer not to put someone down by just looking at my frown face.

I'm a loner. I live and deal with my problems all by myself. I write when I'm hurt, coz I got nobody to share things that made me feel bad. So, just ignore what I am blabbering right now. Just, don't worry about me. I still care and love all my friends.

I know I'm gonna be fine here. It's not gonna be long, I'll be gone by April. So, I think I will enjoy my time being here.

Watch me on Awani, berita segenap dimensi. LOL. *tagline di situ..

;)

Hey Ho...! Let's Go...!

2011-01-07T10:32:00.000-08:00

There's no easy way to live through life.

Troubles double the pressure.

One after another it comes, but I still stand tall.

For I believe, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

I am never too good a person, so are you.

Let us learn the hard way, together.

Experience is the best teacher.

Let time be the judge and we'll see where this can lead us to.

So, how hard can it be to pull me down?

Be it, I'm a loner.

I am sick, but I am not dying.

Come what may.

I am not giving up.

I am a strong person.

Thank you, Lord.

You are always there beside me.

And thanks to you for reminding me that.

Love you.

You know it.

=)

Giving Me A Self-Reward

2010-12-22T11:08:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

I believe that giving yourself some kind of reward will boost up your spirit - your mood and everything. No need to spend on something expensive. Be it a new jeans, a nice ring, or maybe just a lil treat to McDonald's, a reward makes you feel good and accomplished. Sometimes, the littlest thing or the most regular shopping you do is more than enough.

Today, I had a great time with my sister and my brother in law. I love hanging out with my family more compared to friends (but I do love all my friends dearly). I feel safe and I know I won't do things I shouldn't - especially on the amount of money I spend and the stuff I buy.

This semester was a rough one. So many things happened - the happy ones and the sad ones. I was super busy, I almost died in tonnes of assignments, the result was not the best I could get but I feel grateful for I didn't fail any subjects. And then there were some personal matter and argument and... sigh.

So, I decided that I've been successful for getting through all these. Phew! And, I deserve some reward for myself. Today was the day.

Tonight, I get to spend some time with my sister *thanks to Abang Amin for taking us there*. I've been whining weeks ago to go to the cinema and watch a movie. And tonight was the night. Yay! Finally...

Back to the post title, I was talking about self reward. Yeah...this is a reward for myself, for working so hard the whole semester, for coming back and fro - Shah Alam, Taiping, Kajang, Shah Alam, Taiping, Kajang, whichever one comes first - and for doing well during the interview at Astro Awani. I think they like me. Weehoo!

So, here are the things that I self-rewarded myself.

~ Chicken ham and cheese takoyaki balls (love it! love it!)

~ Chicken rice claypot

~ A new pair of Vincci pump shoes (Vincci okayyy... with discount. LOL!)

~ A whole bag of pink marshmallows (dunno what's the flavor, it's plain. Maybe bubblegum)

~ Caramel popcorn! (I always get the lite n' sweet popcorn at GSC, but it's TGV. They don't have it)

~ A movie Kak Limah (it's Abang Amin's treat - adding up the joy... wink wink!)

~ And a feel-good blog post... =)

The movie really made my day. I was thinking to write a review on it, but I hadn't write one for so long, I'd probably write more shit out of it. Just a quick one, it was a good movie. Highly recommended. So, go and watch it for yourself!

Oh, it's late. I better get some sleep.

Buona notte.

Fear

2010-12-16T06:04:00.000-08:00

‎"You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith," Mary Manin Morrissey said to me, one night.

I looked at her.

I was watching Malcolm In The Middle when she suddenly entered my room.

It was a Tuesday night.

I smiled and told her, "So, I must stand strong and have no fear."

"There you go." She walked to the door.

"I know you're strong, girl. Good luck."

She slammed the door shut, and I woke up.

♥

Mari Bercakap Bahasa Inggeris: Episod 1

2010-12-11T21:57:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Aku tanya, kenapa agaknya bahasa kedua ini sangat penting bagi kita semua? Sebab ia bahasa yang global. Sebab satu dunia faham bahasa ini. Sebab ia boleh bawa kita pergi jauh. Sebab dengan mahir dalam bahasa ini, boleh bantu kita setanding dengan orang-orang dari negara luar sana. Oh?

I didn't know any English words since I was a kid. Memang langsung tak ada pendedahan. My family does not speak English, dari moyang ke nenek ke datuk ke makcik pakcik ke mama ke abah ke adik beradik. We only speak Malay, bahasa Melayu sahaja. So, it's kinda hard for me to excel the subject in school. Until I was in Standard 3, cikgu English masa tu adalah Miss Khoo (rasanya cikgu ni pun dan meninggal dunia, lama dah, so this post is somehow a tribute to her... thanks teacher).

Cikgu ni dah tua pun masa tu, tapi belum kawin. Dia memang garang gila. Tiap kali masuk kelas muka ketat nak mampus, rasa nak terkencing kalau dengar dia marah. So, I was one of those (not-so-smart) kid in the class, selalu bermasalah dengan subjek yang diajar beliau iaitu bahasa Inggeris. Ini sungguh merunsingkan, kerana dalam subjek lain, boleh dikatakan I was on the lead (cewah!)- Maths especially. Tapi English? Haihh...

Setiap kali subjek English, cikgu ni suka suruh build a sentence based on perkataan yang dia bagi. Basic words je, macam table, rubbish, eraser, dustbin... perkataan bodo-bodo je. Tapi aku tak pernah cuba angkat tangan dan try buat ayat. Memang tak tau dan takut salah, pastu malu. Yang selalu jawab masa tu, the non-Malays dan yang Malay, Nurul Huda. Beliau sangat pandai English. Saidatul pun. Tapi aku tak pandai, kerana ter-sangat bengap dalam English waktu tu, perkataan-perkataan macam tu pun rasa susah sangat tahap Add Maths mahupun Fizik dan Kimia. Jadi selalunya bila time English class aku diam je, padahal kalau waktu subjek lain memang ter-sangat bising mengalahkan ayam (yang comel).

Satu hari tu, Miss Khoo panggil aku datang depan kelas. Dia baru lepas mark kerja sekolah yang dia bagi semalam. Aku kena marah depan kelas. Dahla jawab soalan banyak salah, bila buat corrections, nak eja 'CORRECTIONS' tu pun berterabur salah. Dahla eja correction salah, jawab semula soalan dalam correction tu pun boleh salah lagi. Sampai kena buat corrections of corrections. Gila bengap. Dia tanya aku kalau ada masalah nak faham apa dia ajar. Aku tipu, kononnya aku faham tapi tu semua careless mistakes. Jahat gila, kecik-kecik dah pandai menipu masa tu.

Lalu, disebabkan rasa bengap yang sudah lama berlarutan itu dan aku makin tertekan (konon la, pressure belajar subjek Darjah 3 katanya), aku pun ambil keputusan untuk tulis surat kepada Badan Kaunseling. Dekat tepi Teachers' Room ada satu kotak untuk student yang rasa bermasalah letak surat mengadu masalah. Jadi aku pun buat-la seperti yang dinyatakan di atas.

Esoknya, lepas rehat Miss Khoo panggil aku datang jumpa dia. Dah rasa nak terkencing time tu. Aku fikir kena marah lagi-la nampaknya ni. Rupanya tak. Masa aku jumpa Miss Khoo, dia senyum. Langsung tak nampak marah.

"Awak ada masalah dalam Englsih?"

"Saya... saya tau saya tak pandai, teacher."

"Awak bukan tak pandai. Awak lemah saja, dan awak rasa rendah diri."

"Uh... ma... mana cikgu tau?" *kena ada gagap-gagap sikit, baru dramatik.

"Mesti-la saya tau. Saya kan cikgu kamu."

Aku nangis kat situ gak. Aku cerita betapa aku tak pandai English, eja 'Corrections' pun salah. Dan aku jeles aku tak se-pandai budak-budak lain dalam kelas tu. Miss Khoo kata, nak belajar English kena selalu practise. Macam naik basikal, kena hari-hari kayuh. Baru pandai. Ada lagi yang dia cakap tapi aku dah lupa. Cuma yang aku ingat, tiba-tiba aku rasa sungguh ber-motivasi masa tu. Berkobar-kobar untuk belajar English.

So, dalam kata dah terlambat jugak nak bermula dari basic, aku tebalkan muka pegi library dan pinjam story books untuk Darjah 1 macam Snow White, Sleeping Beauty... yang satu page ada satu ayat je tu, aku baca semula merangkak-rangkak. Biar tak faham, aku tengok kamus. Hari-hari aku baca. Dah rasa terer sikit, aku pinjam buku yang hebat lagi. Sampai ke novel. Dan aku still ingat buku English pertama yang aku berjaya baca sampai habis, tajuk dia 'The Wind in The Willow'. Best cerita tu. Ada Mr.Mole, Mr. Badger, Mr.Frog. Adventure habis.

Dalam class pun aku dah berani speaking-speaking dengan budak-budak Chinese dan India. Aku jadi rapat dengan diorang. Masa tu paling sikit berkawan dengan budak Melayu, diorang tak suka belajar. Aku sekolah Convent, so budak Melayu pun tak-la ramai sangat dan ramai yang kaya-kaya je tapi poyo berlagak nak mampus.

Naik Standard 4, aku dah jadi tutor dalam SAL Project, kira macam program adik angkat la, ajar English dekat budak-budak Standard 1. Rasa bangga sangat. Itu pencapaian paling best aku rasa. It was as if I really went from zero to hero. Cool oh.

Sampai sekarang, aku belum la tip top sangat pun dalam English. I can write well (ok-lah, not so well) lintang pukang je campur-campur. But when it comes to speaking, aku banyak bergantung dengan environment - orang-orang yang boleh aku berborak dalam English dan tak rasa aku cuba berlagak best.

Itu yang aku cuba tingkatkan sekarang. Sebab aku menyesal sikit, baru-baru ni ada dapat call regarding the internship, dari Astro Radio. It was somehow an interview through the phone, mungkin untuk mengesahkan placement aku di Astro nanti. The lady asked me to briefly tell her about my background and experiences. I stammered A LOT. Coz I wasn't ready. And my mind went blank. After I hung up, I thought I did it really bad, I almost blew it away- the chance. But I thought again, they already picked me. It was only for the placement and if I blew it, maybe boleh dapat department lain? But radio is good enough though. Entah la.

Justeru, atas perasaan tidak enak ini-lah yang melahirkan rasa untuk menulis post kali ini. Tiba-tiba teringat Miss Khoo, zaman sekolah dulu-dulu, macam mana I tried really hard to be good in English, macam-macam.

Menulis post di blog ini pun kira satu bentuk latihan jugak. So, if there's any mistake grammatically ka, spelling-nya ka, feel free to correct me.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Nervusa

2010-12-09T00:29:00.000-08:00

Mi dunno se mi spiko la lingua italia.

Ma, ora mi strata nervusa per mia placementa.

Mi ho non idea dove mi futura interno lavoraro.

Mi non maniaco.

Haha.

SMS Gumbira

2010-12-01T11:04:00.000-08:00

Hari ni aku dapat SMS gumbira. Ter-sangat.

Orang pertama yang aku harus beritahu, semestinya Mama.

Tutt... tuttt... Aku call Mama, tapi tak berjawab.

Tiba-tiba, ringtone mesej berbunyi. Nama Mama tertera.

Mesej dibaca.

"Ninie call Mama ke tadi? Ma tengah latihan nasyid ni."

"Oo...yeke... takde pape. Nak bagitau je, Ninie dah tau result exam. Alhamdulillah... DL, Ma..."

"Syukur sangat, alhamdulillah. Tahniah, cyg. (short form feveret Mama). Tuhan dengar doa Mama."

Aku terkedu. Tersyahdu seketika. Rasa nak menitis air mata bila Mama sebut ayat terakhir tu.

Memang betul. Aku ingat, selama ni kalau aku berusaha mati-matian, ditambah dengan doa tak henti, mesti aku akan berjaya. Aku silap. Aku lupa. Tanpa doa Mama, tak mungkin aku terima apa yang aku terima hari ni. Even doa aku saja tak cukup untuk buka pintu rahmat Tuhan, tapi doa seorang ibu, lebih makbul dari segala-galanya.

"Mekasih, Ma... Sayang Mama... =)"

"Sama-sama. Cyg Ninie juga. Ni, tadi Mama amik Chung balik umah sebab Tuk Alang masuk spital, ada kawan la balik si Tam tu. Tapi Tam duk panjat si Chung, Tam dah tak kenal Chung, dia ingat Chung kucing betina. ... bla bla bla..."

Panjang pula cerita Mama pasal kucing-kucing tu.

Aku senyum. Aku tak peduli pun kalau kucing-kucing di rumah tu nak jadi adik beradik kucing gay, tapi apa yang Mama cakap tadi masih berbekas dalam hati aku.

Betul. Tuhan dengar doa Mama...

Syukur...

Terima kasih, Ma...

Terima kasih, Ya Rabb....

In Love

2010-11-28T02:23:00.000-08:00

I am so in love with you.

I mean it.

In fact, I fell in love with you years and years ago.

I know I was only 14 when I first saw you, but...

... our age differences is not the issue. Right?

Even if you're married, I don't care.

There's just one problem.

I don't know what my mum and my family would say if I take you home.

We're of different country, culture and religion.

But I love you very much, don't know if they could understand.

Whatever it is, let us not worry about it.

Play me Claudine, and kiss me good night.

Molto amo tu...

Максим Мрвица...

Trial

2010-11-22T05:57:00.000-08:00

There are too many things I'm going through.

Too many to tell.

Failing, and losing...

They're just not my thing.

Mari Mengemas

2010-11-15T08:20:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

It's weird how I like to keep old stuff. Whenever I get the mood of mengemas (this shows that the mood comes VERY rarely, maybe once in months, or years, or decades), I could find things that even I couldn't remember I once owned. Like, right now I am in the middle of this good mengemas mood, it is when I find my Biology book - you know, that long science book of notes I wrote myself when I was in Form 4. Siap ada nama kelas lagi, 4 Qayyum. Hah!

After all these years, looking at your Biology notes gives this feeling. It's unbelievable that I was once a Science student. With all the diagrams and anatomies I drew, science terms like 'arterosklerosis', 'mitosis' and more sis... looking at those stuff, it made me smile. Tak percaya rupanya dulu pernah mampu menjadi seorang Science geek, tapi sekarang... sumpah dah tak ingat semua tu lagi dah. Haha!

Other than that, I found a cute notebook with flowers, hearts and coffee cups - the kind of book which girls LOVE to have as a biodata book - haihh... zaman sekolah sangat-la sweet ye. I remembered it was a birthday present from Lydia when I was Form 2. I still keep it and haven't even draw a scratch inside it. Sayang nak guna, sebab comel sangat.

Then, there are SOOO many pieces of junks I wrote like poems (poyo dari dulu lagi sebenarnya), doodles yang buruk sebab tak reti melukis and the rest of things which are all rubbish. So, ada yang dah tak berapa mengingatkan memori manis, I just throw them away. All the way to the plastik sampah. Yay! Dah berjaya kurangkan semak.

Entah-la, this isn't a good habit though, menyimpan barang sehingga semak is not a good thing. Ditambah pula jika anda seorang yang malas mengemas (seperti saya ini). But, like the famous saying, old habits die hard. Oh, yes. The large bouquet of dried roses I got during my convocation pun baru saja dibuang. Fuhh! After more than a year! Lepas dah puas tengok selama setahun, baru-lah dibuang. Tahniah.

I better get back to pack things up before I write more blabs.

Oh! Selamat Hari Raya Korban! Salam 'Iduladha...!

*I feel so good tonight. After being somewhat emo yang berpotensi untuk mencederakan diri sendiri, we finally put it to an end. It all got off my chest and I feel so free. We're good again. Alhamdulillah... =)

New Songs Update

2010-11-13T11:15:00.000-08:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

This time tak banyak. Just five songs.

And I can't resist Red Sparowes. Love their music.

Check out those songs in my new playlist. *If you care to do so lah.

Tak susah.

All you need to do is leave my blog open on your tab.

The song will play on its own. *ouh... perlu-kah saya explain... huu...

And then tell me what you think about the songs.

We might share the same taste of music.

Grazie...!

Cuti Life Updates

2010-11-03T06:49:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Due to some mis-komunikasi, I had to remove a post that is quite radical and emotional. Yes, I'm emo (read: not being emo is not being human). So, here, I don't mean to write another reply macam surat cinta yang panjang berjela yang mungkin disalah tafsir lagi. But the good part of it was, rupanya there are still some people yang do read my (full-of-crap) blog. Terasa diri masih diambil tahu (*smile). Honestly, nothing gives a better feeling for a loner (like me) to be cared for by other people. Serius, terharu!

Ok, dah melalut. Let's just talk about me instead.

I started my break slightly earlier than my other friends because of the fact that I've no final exams to sit for. So, yay! It's me-time again and I can do everything - watch TV, read books, eat a lot, play games, watch movies - as much as I want. Throughout the semester, it had been a tough one and I hardly have time for myself and do things I want. Memang chaos, I didn't get enough sleep, assignments berlori-lori, makan tak betul time, and some things went wrong. Macam-macam.

In the middle of keserabutan yang tak terkawal tu, I followed a class trip to Taman Negara, Pahang. We had a great time. It's a part of the assignment we were asked to complete, which is mengkaji peralatan yang digunakan oleh Orang Asli - kaum Bateq. It's an artifact-research subject. So, we met the cool Bateq tribe, memang kuno habis but they're very friendly. They speak bahasa Bateq and Malay, some speak English - sebab dah banyak jumpa tourist mat saleh. Memang cool. And to go from place to place, they use boats. And so did we. Memang gerun naik bot di tengah Sungai Pahang- the water was super deras, sangat adventure for white-water rafting. All I had in mind was, "Jangan-lah terjumpa buaya!"

Tak ada pun buaya. Ikan banyak la - ikan patin masak gulai tempoyak. Fui...!

After the visit to Kampung Bateq, we went swimming. Yep, mandi di Sungai Pahang. Masa tu memang dah lupa diri. Best ouh dapat mandi sungai!

Back from sungai, everybody was wet and worn out - berendam 4 jam dalam sungai sangat best dan meletihkan. Malamnya, there was acara karaoke-sampai-lebam-tak-ingat. Some of us rupanya ada bakat terpendam, but I didn't sing. Bad cough that time. Uhuk uhuk.

The next day, we went trekking in Hutan Simpan Taman Negara. I was among the last, dah lama tak memanjat, semput jugak-la kiranya. But I made it to the 300m canopy, Jambatan Gantung yang sumpah tinggi. Dalam bergasak memanjat, I made friends with some tourists. There were a sweet old couple from Holland - forgot their names, Natalie and Alex from Switzerland and Marco from Italy. Meeting Marco was the best part because I spoke to him in Italian and he replied me well - maknanya dia paham la. Cewah! Aplikasi pembelajaran bahasa ketiga di sekolah.

Later that day, we got back to Shah Alam. I got road sick. Dah lama tak naik bas. We stopped at Genting Sempah and I grabbed some McD and suddenly terus okey. LOL.

Second story, a few days before the trip, I got selected to be involved in the Astro Challenge Workshop. Out of those people who got far more fluent English, I got selected though I speak with my English yang tunggang langgang ini. Be it. I was there for two days. We were put in groups, mixed with those from Masscom and Business Study. We were brought on a tour all around the building and the workplace. Best jugak but the place is big, so penat juga berjalan. Hoho... (fatso! fatso!)

Oh yes! Nak juga include di sini, I met some celebrities during the time berada di Astro. When we were brought to the radio conty, there were Ferhad, Serena C., Khairil 'Krill' and a few more radio announcers. Then at the cafe, I saw Reza 'Kata Kau' (entah kenapa, tak paham why lah I adore him since Kelab Pop lagi... haihh!), then there were Adam C. (oh my! He's so cute! Sekarang dah terlambat nak rasa menyesal sebab tak cakap 'Hi!' waktu tu... LOL?), and a few pelakon TV. Pastu yang paling best, I saw Maher Zain! He saw me too (cewah!) and smiled. Haha! Mula-mula cuba kawal diri, I didn't wanna show my excitement sangat, but it was so obvious, akhirnya tak boleh kawal diri lagi and I screamed to him "I love your songs!". He smiled and laughed a lil. Adoi. Segan pulak bila ingat balik, but seriously, he is super cute. I mean, sebab wajah beliau putih dan suci lagi menyejukkan hati emak-emak mertua. LOL.

Okay. Back to Astro Challenge. I was in the Delta Group. My group sangat kecoh - and tak kurang juga yang tunjuk bagus but I really don't give a damn. We played games and had a mini mind-map presentation, we got the best group out of the rest for both activities. Hurrah!

For the second day, terpaksa lebih serius dan formal. No more games. We were meeting those big people of Astro Broadcast Department. We were to present our ideas on how to make Astro relevant to the youth. I was so nervous, but I did my part quite well though. But we weren't the best group for presentation - some other group got it. Takpe-lah, I wasn't putting high hopes anyway. Then, after the penyampaian and stuff, balik-lah ke rumah.

The good news is, yesterday I got an SMS from Cik Suzee from the Astro Challenge. In the message she wrote, "Congratulations! You are the Top Performers during the Astro Challenge Workshop! (*smiley) We are pleased to offer you Internship opportunities in Astro. You will receive the Internship letter soon. Please check your email for further details."

I was like... is this for real? I didn't take it so seriously pun during the workshop, but alhamdulillah... Rezeki dari Allah. Finally, there's something I can be happy about. I was thinking to throw a celebration party (exaggerate je nih) but I ended up celebrating it on my own. Hurm...

This break has a long a way to go. I plan to work, but I guess I'll be needing my good time to rest more. Plus, with the check-ups and doctor's appointment, I think I'll just chillax at home and pray for my result. I hope I'll get good grades. Need to pray hard for my pointer. Amin...

Have a break. Have a Kit-Kat. *tapi Kinder Bueno pun sedap. Hoho!

My New Best Friend

2010-10-28T11:52:00.001-07:00

Macam tukar baju
Kawan-kawan pun begitu
Boleh tukar selalu
Boleh pilih mana satu
yang kau suka dan mahu.

Dicari dirayu
Bila saja kau perlu
Andai mahu dibantu
Seboleh mungkin dicari aku
Tapi bila ada kawan baru
Kau pergi berlalu
Tinggalkan aku
termanggu-manggu.

Entah aku pun tak pasti
Apa aku yang salah
Tapi sumpah aku tak kisah
Apa-lah susah
Kawan-kawan lain bersepah
yang lebih mengerti
dan tahu menghargai
yang sudi menangis bersama
bukan ada masa ketawa saja.

Bukan membenci
Bukan merajuk
tapi cuma penat
Kata kau.
Dan aku yang makan hati
tapi tak suka dipujuk
namun aku bukan cuma alat
buat kepentingan kau.

Tapi jangan kau risau
I'm doing just fine
without you.

And don't you worry
I'm not judging you
After all we've been through
After all the things I did for you
Everything is meaningless
Now that you chose
to have distances keeping us apart.

I've my new best friend too
and for sure that friend is not you
I enjoy my time being lonely
with my new best friend named ME.

But we're still friends.
That's the plan.
And we'll always be friends
Till the end.

Writing Academically

2010-10-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

Citarasa perasaan manusia yang bersifat subjektif akan membentuk nilai estetika yang indah. Keindahan menyedarkan keperluan manusia. Ia berpunca daripada natural compulsions iaitu perasaan terdorong secara semulajadi terhadap sesuatu objek atau kejadian. “Important moral, ethical, and philosophical ideas are taught in every show, while entertaining the audience at times with roaring humor and special action-packed scenes.” (Harris, 2009)

Tahap kesempurnaan manusia boleh dicapai apabila manusia berjaya untuk melepaskan diri dari belenggu–belenggu materi duniawi (obstacles) yang sering kali menipu dan menjerat. Dengan mencapai tahap kesempurnaan (teori harmony, menurut Santayana) seseorang manusia akan lengkap dari segenap aspek – mental, fizikal dan spiritual. Malah, seorang manusia dikatakan mencapai kesempurnaan dan menjadi manusia yang hebat (super man) atau Übermensch, menurut Friedrich Nietzsche. Dalam konteks Kosi dan Serawi, setelah berjaya melalui semua rintangan dalam pencarian Raja Seri Rama, boleh dilihat sebagai super man kerana mampu mengatasi kesemua aspek halangan dalam pengembaraan mereka.

Secara tuntasnya, segala teori dari lima ahli falsafah yang diutarakan mempunyai relasi antara satu sama lain bukan disebabkan mereka memiliki ilmu yang sama, tetapi kerana semua ilmu di dunia ini datangnya dari Allah dan ia adalah mutlak milikNya sahaja, sumber segala sesuatu. Dia berhak memilih untuk menurunkannya kepada sesiapa yang dikehendakiNya tanpa mengira agama. Memetik sepotong kata-kata dari Jean-Paul Sartre, “I have no religion, but if I were to choose one, it would be that of Shariati's (iaitu syariat Islam)."

: : Alhamdulillah... I'm almost out of the chaos of completing tonnes of assignments. There are just a few more to go and it is not so much driving me nuts anymore. As you read above, that was the conclusion of my philosophy findings as we were asked to write an essay relating wayang kulit Kosi and Serawi with the philos from five different philosophers; Andre Bazin, Henri Bergson, George Santayana, Immanuel Kant and Friedrich Nietzsche - now I've no problem to spell their names correctly, LOL!

At first, it was kinda exhausting to know what is so special and important to find the truth out of what these philosophers were saying. But getting deeper and deeper into it, I understand better. I thank God for giving me the chance to learn this subject; of which I found my self-discovery and self-completion. I realize it brings me to another level of thinking. And I'm completing the tasks not just for the sake of getting good marks, indeed it is a no-ending journey towards finding yourself in you. Most importantly, the seek of knowledge brings me closer to God. It never feels this good and I am calmer than before. Alhamdulillah.

Through the subject too, I just got myself another good news but that isn't yet to be revealed. I'm all excited! All praises to Allah.

Really, thanks Lord... =)

: : And oh, just to have an escapism for a while, we're going to Paramore, baby....! Woohoo! : :

Lagi... Socrates yang Cakap, Bukan Aku

2010-10-13T11:54:00.000-07:00

Having the fewest wants, I am nearest to the gods. ~Socrates

Having less wants, I am nearer to Allah. ~Me

Important Things I'm About to Miss but You SHOULD NOT...!

2010-10-07T16:07:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

There are so many things happening this weekend. I'm taking this opportunity to somehow promote these events that involve many important people in my life. This (too) is some kinda my biggest apology for not being able to attend and be a part of all these events.

First...

1st poster
*credit to Shazlan Photographer

KAKI LIMA Cinephoto Exhibition
Pudu Sidewalk
9th. & 10th. October 2010
(Saturday & Sunday)
8.00 am - 5.00 pm
Admission : Free

*poster taken from here
credit to Baju and gang

Second...

Honours Stage (HOST)
Must-watch show :
Oedipus directed by Fasyali Fadzly
Perkarangan Dewan Bahasa & Pustaka (DBP)
9th. & 10th. October 2010
(Saturday and Sunday)
Admission : RM 5 only

*Poster design: Credit to Byxura Photography

Last but not least...

BCSMTKRC: A short film
*All the best to Jaja, Zairul, Hans, Zul and the rest of the production team!
(pedulikan yang lain, I know you guys can do it....!)

I'm off to Taman Negara today - we're going to dig and hunt for some artifacts yaww! Hope it would be fun though I have to let go of these important events I've been looking up to. I wish everybody the best of luck...!

Busy + Sick Life Updates

2010-10-02T11:44:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Seminggu ni... kerja berlambak... I've been working like a pig (cuter, no? or like a buffalo? mana-2 lah....) less time to have fun + going out + sleep = M.I.S.E.R.Y.

Until I fell sick... I need Mama more than anything else...

Runny nose... fever... so not my favourite...

But some good things did happen though...

I received two awards during Anugerah Kecemerlangan Akademik... woohoo! There were the MPPs, all the award receivers (the DLs, Anugerah Pelajar Harapan and our handsome dean... cewah!)
*and yeah... for the group picture, I was looking somewhere else (atau mungkin jugak tengah mengumpat...!)

Me with my girls... my besties... my BFF... ♥ ♥ ♥
(ya... ya... I'm that fatso... need some workout...)

K.a.m.i. aka Us... (after all the formalities, we turned out being gila-gila, just the way we are)

Kudos to Wewe the photographer for the day... you rawk, babe!
(yea, sure we're gay... you got prob, mate? haha...)

And back with tonnes of assignments... and more assignments... and... MORE ASSignments... *sigh...

It's Saturday! My sis took me out and we gained some weight. Haha! Nice....

Since I'm sick, I could hardly finish those 5 pieces of meatballs.
(but it made me feel way way way better... TQ Hayoyom & Abg Amin!)

... and some activities to cheer me up...!

Now I can sleep with all the hearts and love on top of my bed... I just love wall stickers...!

Sometimes, being ME is a whole lot of fun...!

Some blog readers think I'm a guy... duh... (well, I don't know if I'm gay...LOL!) so I put up some photos of me and more me... see? I got no gender confusion problem, just some overweight issue... blah blah blah....

Socrates yang Cakap, Bukan Gua

2010-09-18T11:26:00.000-07:00

I decided that it was not wisdom that enabled [poets] to write their poetry, but a kind of instinct or inspiration, such as you find in seers and prophets who deliver all their sublime messages without knowing in the least what they mean. ~ Socrates

* Taken from somewhere down there.

C.O.M.P.E.T.I.T.I.V.E.N.E.S.S.

2010-09-17T13:22:00.000-07:00

A severe disease
Insecurity
Self-comparing
Jealousy
Motivation
Strive for challenge

The love of being perfect
The urge to be better
The need to stand up high
The fear of being looked down at

Persaingan sihat?
Oh...

I aim high.
But it's killing me.

* Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin...

Hingusan Menulis Blog

2010-08-31T12:30:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

It's weird reading your own posts in your own blog. It is even weirder to read the posts years and years ago when you know nothing about blogging. Serius kelakar ni! I was about to start working on my assignment when I suddenly happened to have the urge to check the traffic feed. A visitor from Hamilton just walked by 21 hours ago reading on the post I wrote back in 2008. Kalau dulu, kira dah habis gempak-lah ni sebab konon kalau ada trafik dari luar negara masuk tu kira dah satu kebanggaan yang amat hebat-la kiranya. Haha...

So, dengan sengaja terus pula rasa nak membaca balik post tersebut. Hahaihh! Kelakar-nya rasa macam nak berguling-guling! Memang lawak baca balik apa yang ditulis masa dulu-dulu. Memang rajin betul rupanya dulu menulis benda bukan-bukan. Bak kata orang, memang tahap tak ada kerja sangat-lah. Dengan bahasa tunggang langgang, English ke laut. Memang hampeh!

But I'm not ashamed of what I wrote. Tak rasa pun nak men-delete semua post yang merepek meraban tu. Those posts have helped me becoming me today. Kalau tak mula menulis merapu pada umur waktu itu, mungkin hari ni pun I would still write rubbish - entah-entah sekarang pun masih menulis macam sampah. Tapi apa yang paling ironi, masa menulis sampah tu bukan main ramai komen masuk. Seronok sebab bila ada komen, maknanya ada orang yang sudi baca post tersebut. Tapi sekarang ni lain, ada orang baca ke tidak, peduli apa.

Sampai sekarang macam masih segan nak mengaku blogger. Kalau ada orang yang sudi baca, alhamdulillah. Tapi cukup tak suka kalau berjumpa orang di luar menegur atau menyapa dengan nama di blog. I am a totally different person on the outside. As a blogger, call me Mapieceofart. And please do spell my name correctly. Haha!

Gambar tiada kena mengena dengan topik dibincangkan.
Saya rindu ini budak.
Sangat.

I'm All Good

2010-08-25T13:01:00.001-07:00

You ran
I walked
Kau menyanyi
Aku berpuisi
Kau memandang
Aku melihat
You talked
I thought
Kau diam
Aku bisu
You hurt
But I'm all good.

Kau berjanji
Aku bersumpah
Kau berlagu
Aku termanggu
You laughed
I smiled
Kau rapuh
Aku patah
Kau hancur
Aku lebur
You rot (in hell)
But I'm all good.

Hey,
aku memang begini
baik-baik saja

You?

Tralalaaa....

Nature Disaster

2010-08-18T15:12:00.000-07:00

Kilat
petir
ribut
taufan
tsunami
mendung
dah reda.

Sekarang cuaca dah cerah semula
Cuma kadang kadang
hujan turun juga renyai renyai.

Aku bawa payung
Kau?
Mari sini kita kongsi
Jangan-lah bodoh
jangan sombong
Nanti kau basah
sakit
demam
kau yang susah.

*Kawan kawan tak mo lawan lawan... hoho...

W.I.S.H.L.I.S.T.

2010-08-15T12:56:00.000-07:00

Bulan puasa
tahun lalu
aku tunggu
kau datang
tapi kau
tidak muncul
jadi ini
aku tulis
senarai panjang
mahu aku
sebagai ganti
juadah berbuka
kita berdua.

Tidak banyak
cuma mahu
supaya kita
dapat jumpa
buka puasa
sama sama
atas meja
semua ada
kuih karipap
ayam percik
sirap bandung
murtabak daging
bubur lambuk
puding jagung
cucur keria
laksa asam
ais kacang
aku suap
kau jamah.

Jadi gantinya
tahun ini
aku siap
beli semua
buat kita
berbuka sama
cuma tapinya

...kau tiada.

* Abah, I miss you... dah dua kali puasa tak ada dengan Abah... really miss you, Bah...

Ini menu wajib ada kalau berbuka puasa dengan Abah dulu-dulu.
Bubur lambuk... =)

*gambar cilok dari sini

Eid Mubarak!

2010-08-12T15:20:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Alhamdulillah, Ramadhan is here again. How I miss the month full of barakah, a month of God's forgiveness and love, thousands of grants from Allah, free of charge. Erm...pergi tarawih tak? XD

Most people are eager when Ramadhan comes because they probably are celebrating Raya more and the fact that it is only another month away. But they forget how Ramadhan should be celebrated more than Syawal just because the fasting month seems too long and hot and dry and tiring. No? Bagus!

Nah...not another series of blabs and emo (as some people claim) expression of how my day sucks and I'm sick and lonely. Here, I'd like to share a video of Maher Zain, of my faourite song, Always Be There. Who's being there for you all the time? No, not your best friend. Not your loved ones.

Allah.

He's always there for you and me.

And here's the lyrics.

Alllahu Akbar… (Allah's The Greatest)

If you ask me about love
And what i know about it
My answer would be
It’s everything about Allah
The pure love, to our souls
The creator of you and me,the heaven and whole universe
The one that made us whole and free
The guardian of HIS true believers
So when the time is hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise HE will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us

So when the time is hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise HE will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us
And HE knows what’s in our little hearts

So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there…

HE bring ourselves from the darkness into the light
Subhanallah praise belongs to YOU for everything
Shouldn’t never feel afraid of anything
As long as we follow HIS guidance all the way
Through the short time we have in this life
Soon it all’ll be over
And we’ll be in His heaven and we’ll all be fine

So when the time gets hard
There’s no way to turn
As HE promise He will always be there
To bless us with HIS love and HIS mercy
Coz, as HE promise HE will always be there
HE’s always watching us, guiding us
And HE knows what’s in our little hearts

So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there…

Allahu Akbar…

So when you lose your way
To Allah you should turn
As HE promise HE will always be there…

Allahu Akbar…

A beautiful song it is. I hope you'll love it too.

Salam Ramadhan al-Mubarak...!

Bored?

2010-08-01T11:38:00.000-07:00

Try this... click HERE...

...or this... click HERE...

Enjoy your ride.

You're most welcomed.

Critics

2010-07-29T22:42:00.000-07:00

To tell you the truth, I don't have any problems of what other people has gotta say about me. Critics are fine, they help you to get better. But in terms of making (or writing) a good critic, you have gotta be neutral, balanced and positive. Not bias, destructive and making it sounds more like a brag. No, a condemn. You brag.

It is my friends you're talking about, buddy. You have no idea how much they sacrificed and worked hard for it. And that critic, was way far too much to be constructive. Don't think of a compliment, it sucks.

But then again, you're good, buddy. REAL good. Keep it up with more critics.

4 A.M

2010-07-25T12:50:00.000-07:00

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Ever find yourself missing someone so bad?
And you realize how you can't forget that someone?
You can't even sleep at night
All you can think of is that one person
You feel so bad for being so far away
when all you wanna do is stay close to him/her
And you can't do anything to help it
other than praying to God
that he/she is always safe, happy and loved

Some might think I'm talking about the one I love
My loved one
And you are relating it with your loved one
Your lover.
Your heart and soul.

No, I'm not.

I'm talking about a friend here.
A soulmate.
My best friend.
And friendship.

(so I made myself clear that I'm not talking about any guy in particular, and hell no, I didn't make myself sound gay either, of which I'm not)

I don't have any special someone to miss much
I only have one best friend.
My lifetime best friend
to share everything with
You might say I don't sound normal
But all I know, I love my best friend
That I share my whole life with
and I'm not afraid to say
she's a friend to die with
God made us friends for life and death.

Yeah, you.

You know it's you.

My dearest friend, Jaja.

I know I shouldn't stay up this late
But it feels so bad, I couldn't shut my eyes
I couldn't sleep
It makes me wanna cry
And I'm crying
to think how I can't be beside her
when things are topsy turvy
How I couldn't hug her
when that's what she needed the most
How I couldn't be there for her
when times are hard and things seem so wrong

(Mood transition: Nice Stupid Playground)

How I wish to go back
and make things right
How I wanna sing in the bathroom
and she'll laugh away listening to me
singing off key
How I wish she would be here...

It's 4 o'clock, I know it's late
My heart is so vulnerable at the moment
It sounds of Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
Later it's Kiroro - Best Friend
And I end it up with Alanis Morissette
So that I would be all good.

I hope things are good for you over there too, bestie.

I don't wanna be sick.

I wish I didn't have to be sick.

No, I'm not sick.

I'll come back.

Soon.

♥

Life's An Illusion

2010-07-21T11:55:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

At some points in my life, I once felt like giving up hope. There is no point of living, to strive and study and fight and fulfill my ambition, I thought. That was when times were hard and troubles seemed endless and I was out of solution and choices.

I read a lot on Philosophy (as a subject and my life knowledge) as well as sufism. It's just a new field I'm interested in. I read from somewhere that life is an illusion. Imagine you are alone in the middle of an ocean, there's a terrible storm and you've got nowhere to go. All you need to do is close your eyes and accept the whole situation with the thought that all that comes to you is an illusion. In God's will, all will be gone in a blink. What's the word, pasrah? Yes. Having that level of calmness in your mind state is the highest range of wisdom in believing in God. God owns it all and He's The Almighty. He's the most powerful of all.

O man, the words are so powerful when I read it. (and oh, how I suck in telling things...) I should find the source where I found it again.

I've gotta get to know God better, it feels like I drifted far far away from Him nowadays. I'm no good, trust me I'm bad, not at all as how I look like on the outside. I'm trying hard to be a better person. Trust me, I'm trying real hard.

I appreciate my life more than anything else now. I love Mama, my friends...no matter how life sucks, I still have them who love me. Praise to God.

Thank you, everyone.

Thank you, Allah.

maher zain thank you allah mp3 | lyrics

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Yes, I listen to Maher Zain a lot nowadays.

Thank you, Jaja. Much love...

W.A.L.A.U.

2010-07-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

Bila pun aku...

Menangis - ketawa - diam - tak bicara - mengadu - sendu - bisu - kaku - ceria - senyum - sedih - bahagia - gembira - celaru - keliru - benci - cinta - rindu - sakit - marah - pilu - cemburu

Aku tahu
Hanya kamu
yang faham aku

Lalu ini aku bilang
"aku sayang kamu, sahabat..."

Dan bila pun...

Pencuci muka-ku cair
Colgate-ku kempis habis
Syampu-ku berkurang
Sabun-ku luak

Tapi
Sekali dia bilang maaf
Aku tak hirau lagi
Aku senyum
kosong-kosong...

*asalkan dia berubah... itu doa-ku...

FACT Film Shorts

2010-07-13T13:20:00.000-07:00

~ Rabu ~
~ 14 Julai 2010 ~
~ 8.10 malam ~
~ Dewan Pancha Delima ~
~ Bangunan Akademik UiTM Puncak Perdana ~

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Ada sesi Q&A.

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Jumpa nanti.

=)

Me and More Me-Thing

2010-07-08T23:33:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

I'm back in the old routine - classes - faculty programs and activities - screenings - hanging out with friends and more stuff. Life's getting more challenging than ever that I need to have better time management and less time to have fun. But, it's just the beginning of a new semester, so there are much more to come.

My friends and I are planning on our shooting for Kebaya. Insya Allah, all that what we have planned since last semester and during the break will be done soon. I'm excited and nervous at the same time.

Regarding my health condition, the pain struck again few days back. I took pain killer and more pain killer to reduce the pain. I don't know where would this lead me to, I'm still waiting for another appointment. I really need to go through the surgery ASAP. I can't stand it any longer. The pain stops me from doing anything, all I can do is lying down in bed all day. I couldn't sleep at night and all I can think of is popping more pills. It's killing me slowly.

I pray for the best of everything - the shooting - my study - my health. Pray for me too.

=(

When School's Over

2010-07-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

I met Kam, my old friend from school today. It was great to have a long talk, sharing old stories of the times we once had been through together. There were Kam, Arip and Rakna, my best friends. All four of us were in the same class when we were in Form 2. Though each one of us have lead different lives now (in different universities and different places) but we still keep in touch. Once in a while, we meet up somewhere, have a drink or a movie. They're my best friends.

When I was 14, I remember how I thought it would be great if I didn't need to go to school. I was so eager to turn 18 and get the hell out from school. After PMR, we seperated. Rakna moved to Perlis, Kam and Arip went to MRSM. I stayed and was elected as the head prefect. I was proud to be chosen out among the boys but honestly, I didn't like it, much. I was too busy with the school discipline and stuff, and I didn't do my best for SPM. I didn't get straight A's and my application to matriculation was rejected. It was my dream to go there. And so, I ended up pursuing diploma. My plea for the second intake to matric was accepted though, but the day they called and informed me about it, I was already registered for diploma.

Life was good, but I had to accept the fact that diploma took 2 years longer compared to matric. But God's the fairest of all, I studied hard and was awarded the best student. Alhamdulillah. After graduation, I furthered for degree, until now.

I came to realize, after so many years and no matter what I do, my friends are still there for me. It's been more than 8 years now, and we're still good friends like old times. And I'm really glad for that.

In school, life seemed so easy back then. But when we're all grown up, things changed. But I'm grateful for one thing that will never change; our friendship.

School life was the greatest. I wish I could turn back time. There are no problems bothering, all we have to do is study and study and do well in exams. School's the best place to make friends, lifetime friends.

Thanks to all my friends - from kindergarten, primary school, secondary school and university. I love you guys...

=)

Anak Cik Maimon...??

2010-06-30T07:04:00.001-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Yes, the title said it all... well, have you ever listen to a song and find the lyrics contain your name? I did...! I was in the car riding home from Penang. My mum, my sister, her hubby and lil baby Adif were there in the car too. As usual, with them in the car I wouldn't get to tune in to Fly FM, Hitz or at least Hot FM. My mum was on control and it was for sure her favourite oldies radio station. Suddenly, I heard my name in one of the songs. It stated my name in full, seriously hilarious and I spontaneously burst out laughing. My mum laughed too. Except for one thing; my mum's name is not Cik Maimon.

I searched for the song and here it is. Haha!

Oh Ibu! Tolong Lamarkan by Othman Hamzah

He's the same guy who sang the song Gadis Melayu (of which was sung by Jamal Abdillah in a new version).

There are so many girl's name in a song. I took some effort to make a list. And here they are :

1) Sephia - Sheila on 7
2) Anna Molly - Incubus
3) Cassie - Flyleaf
4) Jenny - The Click Five
5) Oh, Carol - Neil Sedaka
6) Kamelia - Sweet Charity
7) Juwita - M.Nasir
8) Jesnita - Exists
9) Billie Jean - MJ

...and the list goes on. From the list, we can see that Malay songs are likely to have a girl's name for the title. But there are not quite a number of songs with a guy's name, right? Nobody ever wanna put Karim anak Pak Maun or Malcolm oh Malcolm for a song title (example), is it? At least in the lyrics, if not for the title... Can you name a few?

Well, I just found one for you John! The song was performed by Arctic Monkeys. I linked it on your page, dude... But just in case if you wanna see it again, here's the song... Put your dukes up John!

	Arctic Monkeys - Put Your Dukes Up John .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Okay, I think I'm not really well today. I guess I just feel honored to have my name in the song. But even so, my mum thinks I'm going nuts because I've been singing the lines all day. Woohhoo...!

(apsal entah rasa excited sangat dengan lagu ni... haha!)

" Kuingat Namanya Zahara
Kata Tetangga Ia Rajin Di Dapur
Ibu Takkan Bersusah Punya Menantu Zahara
Gadisnya Rajin Berumah Tangga

ku Harap Ibu Segera Lamarkan
Pada Zahara Anak Cik Maimon
Walau Ia Tak Pandai Berdandan
Asal Saja Pandai Di dapur "

Yeah... I know I'm a bad cook... but at least the song says I'm not...

XD

S.L.U.R.P.E.E.

2010-06-29T00:41:00.000-07:00

Kamu datang
macam Slurpee
warna hijau
sejuk segar
di tengah hari panas
waktu aku
duduk menangis
seorang diri
pegang bunga
mawar plastik tipu.

Kamu datang
macam Slurpee
warna biru
bila aku
duduk termanggu
depan 7-Eleven
tatkala itu
Slurpee hijau
tiada dijual.

(Slurpee biru pun okey juga)

Kamu-lah
Slurpee itu.

Terima kasih ya, kamu.

=)

*yep, i LOVE Slurpee...! Wee....

Not Forgetting You: The Cats and Abah

2010-06-20T11:37:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Time moves so fast, sometimes I couldn't catch up with everything that changes around me. How life changes. And so am I.

I don't mean that I've changed into someone different. I'm still me, the same old me you knew for almost 20 years ago. So, whoever tells you that I'm no longer me, I'm gonna chop their heads off. Seriously.

That's not what I'm gonna write about. As usual, I just couldn't make myself speak direct/straight-forwardly about anything. I'm sad, a little. We (my family and I) had been talking about this for so many times. For somewhat seems like centuries, we love pets and keep them like the extra members of the family. I couldn't name out the cats (those dead cats and the ones we're still keeping) 'cause there are just TOO many of them.

For now, we have six cats - Bubulala the mother and the kittens, Bubu Doll, Bubu Tamtam, Bubu Chung, Bubu Nome and Bubu Lang. But the number is growing (to ten, probably) because Bubu is once again pregnant. For that reason, my mum said, that's it. We have to put them away. We love them, it's true, but it turns to troubles to look after them - and feed them, and bathe them, and clean their wastes. Not to mention hygiene (is that how it spells?) and health issue. Now we have little baby Adif with us, it is no longer a good thing to let them scatter around.

We tried to do the best we could. We still care for them. My mum was calling almost everyone she knows and asked if they want to adopt the kittens. Bubulala is the least wanted 'cause she's pregnant and will produce hundreds of kittens in times to come - she is a productive mother. After all the tries, my mum managed to get one of her friends who wanted to have three of the kittens. The rest she doesn't want, we'd have to put away as well. If only there's a place like SPCA around Taiping, we wouldn't have to do it.

As we expected, nobody wants Bubulala the mother cat. So, we decided to throw her away first. And so just now, me and Mama (with our strong hearts) drove her in the car to a market far away from home and left her there. It's the saddest thing to do, but we really had to. I asked my mum if we should take off the collar with bells tingling on Bubu's neck. My mum refused, she said she didn't want anything that would remind us of Bubu, not a single memory of Bubu. And so my mum put a fish and some Friskies for her to eat so she wouldn't be hungry until tomorrow and find her own food for the next meal. I cried silently. Tears rolling down my cheeks. I hugged Bubu so tight before letting go. The last time I cried so hard was when Coeng died and Abah past away.

We drove away but Mama stopped the car by the roadside a few seconds later. We sat there, dumbfounded but when Mama burst into tears, I hugged her. (how stupid, I was crying so terribly and at the same time I asked Mama to stop crying). It was so sad.

When she felt better, we drove home. We passed the spot where Mama left Bubulala once again, and there she stood glancing around in curiosity.

Bye bye Bubulala, I still have my thumb drive named after you. Gonna miss you... =(

Bubulala when she was little and first came to our home

I took the last pic of her before taking her into the car =(

Today is Father's Day...! I'm happy to read all the wishes my friends wrote on Fb. But I couldn't be happier if I can do the same thing and wish Abah. I still remember when I was 15, I need to complete and essay for an English homework. It was Father's Day and we were asked to write for our dear fathers. As I mentioned before, Abah wasn't so close to me back then and I didn't know how to do it. Finally, I chose to write a letter for the essay and was keeping it away from Abah so he would not read it. In the essay, i wrote those things I wished I'd have the guts to say to Abah. It was one touching letter and I still keep it in my Form 3 English Essay book until today. Whenever I read that essay again, I will surely cry to myself.

I still miss you, Bah. And I'm not going to forget you. This is one of (a few) pictures I have of Abah. We don't take much photos those days. And I regret it.

Miss you more than ever... Happy Father's Day, Bah...

All Mixed Up

2010-06-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Just now it's Rocket by Yuna, now it's Certain Shade of Green by Incubus. How the songs are changing, how my emotions are all messing up in my head... that's how things are happening in my life... Yea right, it's now Take A Bow by Muse...

Good things first... Results were out, and I got the grades I deserve. Alhamdulillah... *wink!

I've been limited to the net during this break. (ini pun belas ehsan abang pinjamkan Broadband). So, once in a while I still get to update my blog, Facebook and stuff. I'm still figuring out how do I get my application for PIDN JPA Scholarship done. It says on the web it is done online (fill-in-the-form) but a friend told me he downloaded the form, filled it up by hand and posted it. So, I'm all confused. I'll find some time to call them directly, there's not much time before the closing date. Maybe I'll give them a call tomorrow.

But tomorrow I'm afraid I wouldn't have any time. Early in the morning, I have an appointment with the doctor. Yay... here's the bad news. Hell no, I wasn't diagnosed with lung or liver cancer like some people claim they were (hoho you know who you are, bast*rd...). No, I wasn't. It's just that the doctor told me that I have gall bladder (is this how I spell it?) And it is now chronic. I don't know how bad it is getting. I've been reading the articles from the internet about the symptoms (yes, I have all of them), the treatments (though I'm not sure I'm still able to cure it without having an operation) and more stuff about it.

I was working part time for this time of break. It's boring to stay home. But on the fourth day, I had to quit 'cause I had a terrible stomach pain. It was slight pain at first so I ignored it assuming it was my usual gastric. But it wasn't gastric. I went to the doctor, got a few injections and he got me scanned the next day. I've developed gallstones in my gallbladder - batu dalam hempedu. Many people have this disease but mostly it can become serious when you are 40+. But Lord, I'm just 20+... (and according to plot flow, the music's now changing to Neuron Star Collision by Muse.)

I need a surgery - cholecystectomy - gallbladder removal, he said, as soon as possible. My Lord, I'm too young to have my gallbladder removed. I was pretty scared and still am. I don't know when will it be, tomorrow's gotta decide. Mama told me it will not hurt that much. It's not that I'm gonna die or anything... but, that doesn't help me feel any better either.

Everybody's sick at the moment. My sisters aren't well, my cat, EVERYBODY... but in my case, it causes me to worry more. I am worried.

People, pray for me. I always want to be in the pink of health. I pray to God. Insya Allah...

(and the final song is Stay Beautiful by Taylor Swift... I hope things will end this way too...)

Hugs...

What D'ya Think of The Songs?

2010-06-11T20:59:00.000-07:00

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

Dah dengar my latest list of tracks? Check it on the right side bar.

So, do you like my music taste?

Tell me about it...

=)