Tuesday Morning Blues

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...


It has been three weeks since I started working here. And oh! It was centuries ago since I last wrote in here. Huhuh...

I am now an intern at Astro Awani. No, I don't read news. I write the news, but mostly I do research on the current issues. I will not appear on TV unless I'll be the media representative for the shows. Or maybe I might be seen walking around the office or just sitting at my desk when they have a crossover for the 8.00pm news. But I'm no celebrity, like my mum thought I would be.

Living on your own (literally on your OWN) is not easy. I live with strangers (who turn out to be really friendly, except for my room mate). I take public transport everyday and got home again past 11 o'clock (often), especially on the days with late night meetings. I walk all the way, maybe 4 km back and fro every single day. The journey to work is always tiring but it won't break my spirit just like that. I'm strong remember...? LOL.

At the work place, I have super nice colleagues. All the people here are extremely nice too. I am working together with Suhaimi Sulaiman (oh man, I adore him since long ago. He's always confident and brilliant and cool about everything.) Everybody at the newsdesk - of which I could only see then on TV before, I can now meet them everyday - what are you thinking? I work with them! And guess what, I get to meet Cerenna, my old friend from primary school. She's gorgeous now. I could still remember his boyish hair when we were in Standard 3.

Basically I'm in the non-bulletin/hybrid division. I deal with the current issues - things I don't give a damn about before - especially politics. But since the first day I was here, it all has changed rapidly and it gives me a whole new perspective. No work comes without a challenge. So is mine. I work hard for every task given. I don't wanna do it the easy way. I need to have a good impression. Fuhh... berdedikasi kan? Wiwiwii...

My life? I like it more than ever. I like being busy. It takes me away from being emotional - you know, I get hurt and upset easily. I don't know what was really happening but something that a friend did made me feel like a fool. I understand things don't go as planned all the time, but just tell me the real thing, I won't get mad. Maybe I am not that important. You can go around and cancel it though you knew I was jumping like a happy bean when I was told that you'll come. But you didn't. And later, I come to know the truth. A day out with me sounds no fun. But lepak-ing til late? Now that sounds like real fun huh. I don't feel right but I don't care. I understand I always come third... maybe fourth... or the last. Coz I'm the least important, right?

Sometimes, people just don't get me, they don't understand the way I feel about things . You think I'm emo? Hell no... I am a happy person. Even if I'm unhappy, I try my best to look like I'm the happiest person on earth. Hypocrite, if that's what you call it. But I prefer not to put someone down by just looking at my frown face.

I'm a loner. I live and deal with my problems all by myself. I write when I'm hurt, coz I got nobody to share things that made me feel bad. So, just ignore what I am blabbering right now. Just, don't worry about me. I still care and love all my friends.

I know I'm gonna be fine here. It's not gonna be long, I'll be gone by April. So, I think I will enjoy my time being here.


Watch me on Awani, berita segenap dimensi. LOL. *tagline di situ..

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