July 30, 2010


To tell you the truth, I don't have any problems of what other people has gotta say about me. Critics are fine, they help you to get better. But in terms of making (or writing) a good critic, you have gotta be neutral, balanced and positive. Not bias, destructive and making it sounds more like a brag. No, a condemn. You brag.

It is my friends you're talking about, buddy. You have no idea how much they sacrificed and worked hard for it. And that critic, was way far too much to be constructive. Don't think of a compliment, it sucks.

But then again, you're good, buddy. REAL good. Keep it up with more critics.

July 26, 2010

4 A.M

kiroro - ╧л╤Сюл©║.mp3 .mp3

Found at bee mp3 search engine

Ever find yourself missing someone so bad?
And you realize how you can't forget that someone?
You can't even sleep at night
All you can think of is that one person
You feel so bad for being so far away
when all you wanna do is stay close to him/her
And you can't do anything to help it
other than praying to God
that he/she is always safe, happy and loved

Some might think I'm talking about the one I love
My loved one
And you are relating it with your loved one
Your lover.
Your heart and soul.

No, I'm not.

I'm talking about a friend here.
A soulmate.
My best friend.
And friendship.

(so I made myself clear that I'm not talking about any guy in particular, and hell no, I didn't make myself sound gay either, of which I'm not)

I don't have any special someone to miss much
I only have one best friend.
My lifetime best friend
to share everything with
You might say I don't sound normal
But all I know, I love my best friend
That I share my whole life with
and I'm not afraid to say
she's a friend to die with
God made us friends for life and death.

Yeah, you.

You know it's you.

My dearest friend, Jaja.

I know I shouldn't stay up this late
But it feels so bad, I couldn't shut my eyes
I couldn't sleep
It makes me wanna cry
And I'm crying
to think how I can't be beside her
when things are topsy turvy
How I couldn't hug her
when that's what she needed the most
How I couldn't be there for her
when times are hard and things seem so wrong

(Mood transition: Nice Stupid Playground)

How I wish to go back
and make things right
How I wanna sing in the bathroom
and she'll laugh away listening to me
singing off key
How I wish she would be here...

It's 4 o'clock, I know it's late
My heart is so vulnerable at the moment
It sounds of Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
Later it's Kiroro - Best Friend
And I end it up with Alanis Morissette
So that I would be all good.

I hope things are good for you over there too, bestie.

I don't wanna be sick.

I wish I didn't have to be sick.

No, I'm not sick.

I'll come back.


July 22, 2010

Life's An Illusion

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

At some points in my life, I once felt like giving up hope. There is no point of living, to strive and study and fight and fulfill my ambition, I thought. That was when times were hard and troubles seemed endless and I was out of solution and choices.

I read a lot on Philosophy (as a subject and my life knowledge) as well as sufism. It's just a new field I'm interested in. I read from somewhere that life is an illusion. Imagine you are alone in the middle of an ocean, there's a terrible storm and you've got nowhere to go. All you need to do is close your eyes and accept the whole situation with the thought that all that comes to you is an illusion. In God's will, all will be gone in a blink. What's the word, pasrah? Yes. Having that level of calmness in your mind state is the highest range of wisdom in believing in God. God owns it all and He's The Almighty. He's the most powerful of all.

O man, the words are so powerful when I read it. (and oh, how I suck in telling things...) I should find the source where I found it again.

I've gotta get to know God better, it feels like I drifted far far away from Him nowadays. I'm no good, trust me I'm bad, not at all as how I look like on the outside. I'm trying hard to be a better person. Trust me, I'm trying real hard.

I appreciate my life more than anything else now. I love Mama, my friends...no matter how life sucks, I still have them who love me. Praise to God.

Thank you, everyone.

Thank you, Allah.

Yes, I listen to Maher Zain a lot nowadays.

Thank you, Jaja. Much love...

July 17, 2010


Bila pun aku...

Menangis - ketawa - diam - tak bicara - mengadu - sendu - bisu - kaku - ceria - senyum - sedih - bahagia - gembira - celaru - keliru - benci - cinta - rindu - sakit - marah - pilu - cemburu

Aku tahu
Hanya kamu
yang faham aku

Lalu ini aku bilang
"aku sayang kamu, sahabat..."

Dan bila pun...

Pencuci muka-ku cair
Colgate-ku kempis habis
Syampu-ku berkurang
Sabun-ku luak

Sekali dia bilang maaf
Aku tak hirau lagi
Aku senyum

*asalkan dia berubah... itu doa-ku...

July 14, 2010

FACT Film Shorts

~ Rabu ~
~ 14 Julai 2010 ~
~ 8.10 malam ~
~ Dewan Pancha Delima ~
~ Bangunan Akademik UiTM Puncak Perdana ~

Masuk percuma.

Ada sesi Q&A.

Nak duduk depan, sila datang awal.

Jumpa nanti.


July 9, 2010

Me and More Me-Thing

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

I'm back in the old routine - classes - faculty programs and activities - screenings - hanging out with friends and more stuff. Life's getting more challenging than ever that I need to have better time management and less time to have fun. But, it's just the beginning of a new semester, so there are much more to come.

My friends and I are planning on our shooting for Kebaya. Insya Allah, all that what we have planned since last semester and during the break will be done soon. I'm excited and nervous at the same time.

Regarding my health condition, the pain struck again few days back. I took pain killer and more pain killer to reduce the pain. I don't know where would this lead me to, I'm still waiting for another appointment. I really need to go through the surgery ASAP. I can't stand it any longer. The pain stops me from doing anything, all I can do is lying down in bed all day. I couldn't sleep at night and all I can think of is popping more pills. It's killing me slowly.

I pray for the best of everything - the shooting - my study - my health. Pray for me too.


July 2, 2010

When School's Over

Salam ukhuwwah fillah...

I met Kam, my old friend from school today. It was great to have a long talk, sharing old stories of the times we once had been through together. There were Kam, Arip and Rakna, my best friends. All four of us were in the same class when we were in Form 2. Though each one of us have lead different lives now (in different universities and different places) but we still keep in touch. Once in a while, we meet up somewhere, have a drink or a movie. They're my best friends.

When I was 14, I remember how I thought it would be great if I didn't need to go to school. I was so eager to turn 18 and get the hell out from school. After PMR, we seperated. Rakna moved to Perlis, Kam and Arip went to MRSM. I stayed and was elected as the head prefect. I was proud to be chosen out among the boys but honestly, I didn't like it, much. I was too busy with the school discipline and stuff, and I didn't do my best for SPM. I didn't get straight A's and my application to matriculation was rejected. It was my dream to go there. And so, I ended up pursuing diploma. My plea for the second intake to matric was accepted though, but the day they called and informed me about it, I was already registered for diploma.

Life was good, but I had to accept the fact that diploma took 2 years longer compared to matric. But God's the fairest of all, I studied hard and was awarded the best student. Alhamdulillah. After graduation, I furthered for degree, until now.

I came to realize, after so many years and no matter what I do, my friends are still there for me. It's been more than 8 years now, and we're still good friends like old times. And I'm really glad for that.

In school, life seemed so easy back then. But when we're all grown up, things changed. But I'm grateful for one thing that will never change; our friendship.

School life was the greatest. I wish I could turn back time. There are no problems bothering, all we have to do is study and study and do well in exams. School's the best place to make friends, lifetime friends.

Thanks to all my friends - from kindergarten, primary school, secondary school and university. I love you guys...

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