Pain in Pleasure : Love-struck

Salam.... ukhuwwah fillah...





I couldn't remember when was the last time I got this odd feelings. After so long, without any intention, it rose again out of nowhere, yesterday. But I held on to myself, telling to my own face that it couldn't be true, I had to deny it because it was not right and I had no right at all to have it.

As I lied in my bed, I heard this nice song, I was attached for a second. It felt so right as if I was the person meant in the lyrics, exactly me. Though I was caught all lovey-dovey then, I sighed out loud. It was just a song, it will only remain as one that somehow related to my story.

You Belong With Me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend

She's upset

She's going off about something that you said

'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like

And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts

I wear T-shirts

She's Cheer Captain

and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see

that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You, you belong with me

You belong with me...

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans

I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself

Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down

You say you're fine

I know you better than that

Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels

I wear sneakers

She's Cheer Captain

and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see

that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me...

Standing by and waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know?

Baby, you belong with me

You belong with me...

Oh, I remember you driving to my house

In the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh

when you know you're 'bout to cry

And I know your favorite songs

and you tell me 'bout your dreams

Think I know where you belong

Think I know it's with me

Can't you see

that I'm the one who understands you?

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me...

~ Taylor Swift

When we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what love means...

~ Leo Buscaglia

* I will keep denying to myself about it, coz' I can't have that kinda feeling. It's just not right.

** But I don't know if the other person awaits me... because for the time being, I would only take him as my best friend ever... I just can't afford to lose our precious friendship...you mean the world to me, dear friend...nobody can replace you... But who knows, that will change somehow...

I wonder if he reads this, but if he really does, please know the truth that I'm hiding from you...

(T_T)